so today i got completely lost in toa payoh. or wherever the hell i was when looking for a building in toa payoh. took the train, got to the right station, and then i took the wrong bus. stupid street directory. yeah yeah i guess i should've asked at the interchange if it was the right bus but no, i didn't. so instead of being surprisingly on time (cos i thought i left the house late), i was extremely late. about half an hour. ok to some people that may be passable but to someone who prides herself on always being punctual, that is very shoddy work.
think the trainer wasn't too impressed, naturally. i wouldn't have been either. but i think she held it against me all day. whatever lah, move on. sheesh. the training is boring btw... the only thing that made my day was when i spotted a familiar face i hadn't seen in... oh, half a year or so.
ok time for some background. i first met this colleague of mine who i hadn't seen in a while at another training course way back in december. she's the young, hot, slim, funky type, u know. with really great hair. gawd i loved her hair. was super long and thick and spirally funky curls.
anyway. just now when i saw her, she was pregnant! and not just pregnant, heavily pregnant! like, gonna give birth next month, literally. i was like, wtf??? i didn't even know she was married! wahlau eh... naturally i was asking her all sorts of questions during the break. haha. can't help it, i get excited when i see people who are pregnant. especially if they're friends. or people i know. even more so if they're young and recently married. leaves me in awe man.
also found out that another girl i used to work with just got married this month too. nah, didn't get married on 060606. haha. this newlywed happens to live in tampines, so she got her husband to drop me off there. so sweet ah. thanks to her i came home early and i managed to go for a much needed think-deep-thoughts walk at the reservoir. did do some deep thinking, but no conclusion. as usual. sighs. reflect too much ready. hmm eh no, i did manage to draw some conclusions. or rather, i stopped pulling the wool over my eyes. doh. now for solutions. sighs...
back to the yummy mummy. she's my age, her husband is 27, and they're having a girl. she prefers boys. haha. couldn't agree more. so exciting lah. eta 21 july. i dunno whether it creeps them out, but i tend to just stare at pregnant women. even more so if they're the funky dressers. haha. mebbe cos i can't imagine myself in their shoes. at all. what they are doing seems like light years away for me. but mostly cos... i dunno. it means that they're settled i guess, and responsible enough to take care of another human being. starting a fresh new chapter, u know. having another purpose in life that is completely unselfish. isn't it great that they're gonna have a baby? seriously? freaking cool laaaaaaah. am i jealous? hell yeah. but like i said, can't imagine. i am soo not ready for that kinda thing. gonna enjoy watching other people do it for a while. sighs. so exciting.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Saturday, June 10, 2006
a sad state of affairs
it's a saturday. i'm home alone (well save for the sis i never speak to) cos my parents and the siblings i do speak to went off to trengganu this morn. not only am i bored, i'm hungry! there's no food in the house! well, nothing that i can easily turn into something satisfying. need to go buy bread... and milk... and juice. man... this means i have to get out of the house. wasn't planning on doing that except to go help huda wrap her berkat, but this got cancelled. i really have no reason to step out now.
hmm perhaps i could pay the gym a visit. do i really wanna do that though? just haven't been in the mood for the gym this past month. a whole month! i have never not gone to the gym this long before. whatever it was i always managed at least one session. this is bad. slowly sinking back into my bad habits... argh. help me, help me please. my favourite quote of late is: "motivation is what gets you started. habit is what keeps you going." brilliant. where is my motivation?
so, here i am, online at 12pm on a saturday with no plans. great. think i'll go read a book or clean my constantly messy room.
p.s. made my mind up for now- will be going for the masters in counselling. i figure this will benefit me a lot. you know, teach me to be more concerned about others, sharpen my listening skills, etc, etc. the design stuff i'll do on the side, cos from what i've seen, design courses want you to be super creative and really out there. out there apparel ain't gonna bring in the dough lor. well, not for a small family business anyway. still trying to convince my parents to change the shop name. bah.
hmm perhaps i could pay the gym a visit. do i really wanna do that though? just haven't been in the mood for the gym this past month. a whole month! i have never not gone to the gym this long before. whatever it was i always managed at least one session. this is bad. slowly sinking back into my bad habits... argh. help me, help me please. my favourite quote of late is: "motivation is what gets you started. habit is what keeps you going." brilliant. where is my motivation?
so, here i am, online at 12pm on a saturday with no plans. great. think i'll go read a book or clean my constantly messy room.
p.s. made my mind up for now- will be going for the masters in counselling. i figure this will benefit me a lot. you know, teach me to be more concerned about others, sharpen my listening skills, etc, etc. the design stuff i'll do on the side, cos from what i've seen, design courses want you to be super creative and really out there. out there apparel ain't gonna bring in the dough lor. well, not for a small family business anyway. still trying to convince my parents to change the shop name. bah.
Friday, June 09, 2006
sarawak part deux
hmm on the last night of the sarawak trip i was too damned tired to write some travel notes, even though the notebook and pen were right there beside me. haha. ran out of clothes by then too cos i wore my baju tidur to the wet market that morning and got the pant hems all wet and stinking like fish. market was abt 40 min away from the kampung we were staying at. bought ikan terubok and some kuih there. the fruits looked awesome. everything was so fresh and alive. really cool. only 4 of us adults plus 2 people from the kampung. the guy drove like a madman. haha.
when we came back, we went straight to the school to look see look see, then to a wedding. quite different from sg weddings, was between 9 to 12. when our bus drove by at 12.30, everything was cleared already sia! haha. kampung people are very hospitable and very nice. kampung was right by the river, with an awesome view of gunung san tubung.
what else did we do that day... oh ya, went to a museum, then pottery factory, then shopping... that's it i think. one of the students had a high fever so that was a bit of a drama, had to take her to the clinic and all.
ok think that's it. malasnye wanna update sommore. not tt anyone cares. haha. pics soon i guess.
when we came back, we went straight to the school to look see look see, then to a wedding. quite different from sg weddings, was between 9 to 12. when our bus drove by at 12.30, everything was cleared already sia! haha. kampung people are very hospitable and very nice. kampung was right by the river, with an awesome view of gunung san tubung.
what else did we do that day... oh ya, went to a museum, then pottery factory, then shopping... that's it i think. one of the students had a high fever so that was a bit of a drama, had to take her to the clinic and all.
ok think that's it. malasnye wanna update sommore. not tt anyone cares. haha. pics soon i guess.
sarawak part une
okies, travel notes about my sarawak trip. overdue, i know, but that's just me. slacker. haha. i still haven't finished unpacking my carry on bag...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
while i was at work...
080606 8.50am thurs
thank god thank god thank god this is my last day of work for this week. no wonder office workers look forward to the weekend so much. now i understand. saya tak suka laaaah. extremely tempted to break my bond. i dunno what it is but i seem to have lost my sense of responsibility and commitment. i couldn't care less who gets affected if i do run off. it's not like i'm planning on bumming around, you know. of cos i'm gonna look for another job. question is, when should i start?
just found out from s. that he will bercuti panjang the whole of july. macam siak, skarang baru bilang! this means that whatever dia sedang buat skarang, aku lah yang kena buat. hmm. i don't mind ah actually. yay yay takde s., i can do my own work. i hate being supervised lah. seriously.
another thing, i think i need to do some soul searching. seem to have lost my sense of direction (no, not the literal one. that one i never had in the 1st place so how to lose? haha). hmm... time to do some meditation and quiet thinking.
9.09am
hmm s. belum sampai. kalau nari dia tak datang, relek jugak. haha. since skarang dia takde, boleh lah action sikit.
i have been playing with the idea of shaving my head for charity. i waaaant. a few people have told me that it wouldn't be professional to come to work with a shaved head. if you think about it, it's only bald for what, a week or so? after that grow back ready... therefore, i CAN do this. worse come to worse wear a scarf or tudung to work lor. or hats. i have hats! haha.
yesterday on the way home in the train, i saw this girl with lots of moles. when i say moles, i mean the huge ones with hair growing out of them. yes, eew. she had them everywhere. could tell that there had been attempts to remove some. by what means, i don't know. was extremely facsinated, and it made me feel really grateful that my moles are small and cute. haha. really ah, kesian.
thank god thank god thank god this is my last day of work for this week. no wonder office workers look forward to the weekend so much. now i understand. saya tak suka laaaah. extremely tempted to break my bond. i dunno what it is but i seem to have lost my sense of responsibility and commitment. i couldn't care less who gets affected if i do run off. it's not like i'm planning on bumming around, you know. of cos i'm gonna look for another job. question is, when should i start?
just found out from s. that he will bercuti panjang the whole of july. macam siak, skarang baru bilang! this means that whatever dia sedang buat skarang, aku lah yang kena buat. hmm. i don't mind ah actually. yay yay takde s., i can do my own work. i hate being supervised lah. seriously.
another thing, i think i need to do some soul searching. seem to have lost my sense of direction (no, not the literal one. that one i never had in the 1st place so how to lose? haha). hmm... time to do some meditation and quiet thinking.
9.09am
hmm s. belum sampai. kalau nari dia tak datang, relek jugak. haha. since skarang dia takde, boleh lah action sikit.
i have been playing with the idea of shaving my head for charity. i waaaant. a few people have told me that it wouldn't be professional to come to work with a shaved head. if you think about it, it's only bald for what, a week or so? after that grow back ready... therefore, i CAN do this. worse come to worse wear a scarf or tudung to work lor. or hats. i have hats! haha.
yesterday on the way home in the train, i saw this girl with lots of moles. when i say moles, i mean the huge ones with hair growing out of them. yes, eew. she had them everywhere. could tell that there had been attempts to remove some. by what means, i don't know. was extremely facsinated, and it made me feel really grateful that my moles are small and cute. haha. really ah, kesian.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i *love* my job
ok bes, supervisor (s.) just went for a meeting so free sikit nak buat kerja. haha. i am so damn good at this act busy thing. anyways, i think i'm not cut out for working a 9 to 5 ah. or in my case, 8.30am - 5.20pm. i still feel lost in this department... mebbe cos i have no clue what this loans business is all about, and i'm expected to coordinate input and turn them into meaningful reports... like, wtf sia? thinking of asking my s. if i can kepo kepo and get attached to individuals from different sections on a monthly basis as well as do my own work so that i can get a feel of what's going on in general...
i hate not having a clue. at the same time, i don't really wanna ask people who don't seem willing to help and seem too busy even if they do wanna help. mebbe i should just be more thick skinned. will probably talk to the young manager and give her some suggestions on orientation of new staff. wahaha. takde kerja cari kerja. need to talk to her about some internal scheme to convert current staff in other depts to my dept or something. sambil menyelam, minum air!
one big big question that i have been grappling with is- should i stay or should i go? cos it'll obviously cost me if i break my bond kan. if i leave at the end of one year, this july... have to pay back about $3k+. wahlau eh. relek sua. then again, the only thing that's keeping me here is the pay and my own stubborness. never say die!! haha. if i could last 6 mths in a sales position headed by a honkie and a yankee, surely i can stay here for the whole of my 2 year sentence right? right.
hmm ok just got back from lunch. s. is not back yet so yay i have some time to myself... haha. pretty lucky that s. is quite relek and doesn't gimme deadlines. at the same time, there is no sense of urgency either. hmm. dunno what kinda environment i prefer. i think relek. but the work you do has to be significant lah. i'm starting to feel a bit more optimistic about this whole thing for some reason. it's out of my comfort zone but hey i guess that's how you grow. grow into what i dunno ah.
my masters plans... i'm a bit doubtful now if this is the right path for me. god knows (and you guys know) how unempathetic and insensitive i am. haha. one of my friends says that this is a good thing though, cos you can't get too emotional and attached in that kinda job. and i have the necessary analytical skills. true true. should i go back to my first love and sign up with nafa or lasalle instead? hmm... decisions decisions.
i hate not having a clue. at the same time, i don't really wanna ask people who don't seem willing to help and seem too busy even if they do wanna help. mebbe i should just be more thick skinned. will probably talk to the young manager and give her some suggestions on orientation of new staff. wahaha. takde kerja cari kerja. need to talk to her about some internal scheme to convert current staff in other depts to my dept or something. sambil menyelam, minum air!
one big big question that i have been grappling with is- should i stay or should i go? cos it'll obviously cost me if i break my bond kan. if i leave at the end of one year, this july... have to pay back about $3k+. wahlau eh. relek sua. then again, the only thing that's keeping me here is the pay and my own stubborness. never say die!! haha. if i could last 6 mths in a sales position headed by a honkie and a yankee, surely i can stay here for the whole of my 2 year sentence right? right.
hmm ok just got back from lunch. s. is not back yet so yay i have some time to myself... haha. pretty lucky that s. is quite relek and doesn't gimme deadlines. at the same time, there is no sense of urgency either. hmm. dunno what kinda environment i prefer. i think relek. but the work you do has to be significant lah. i'm starting to feel a bit more optimistic about this whole thing for some reason. it's out of my comfort zone but hey i guess that's how you grow. grow into what i dunno ah.
my masters plans... i'm a bit doubtful now if this is the right path for me. god knows (and you guys know) how unempathetic and insensitive i am. haha. one of my friends says that this is a good thing though, cos you can't get too emotional and attached in that kinda job. and i have the necessary analytical skills. true true. should i go back to my first love and sign up with nafa or lasalle instead? hmm... decisions decisions.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
060606
hmm just adding something in here cos it's a nice number. i have 30 min left before this special day ends so i wanna get in there in case i don't blog/ don't finish my post in time... got plenty to talk about, don't worry. updates akan datang... not that you care, of cos. wahaha.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
happiness
yesterday i watched x- men with rohana and gang. for details please refer to rohana's blog post. wahaha. i absolutely adored the movie!! sat next to muna and we were squealing and getting excited whenever the hunks came on screen. for me it was wolverine and angel, for her it was cyclops and angel. i will not add in a movie spoiler so i will just say that angle and cyclops had pretty minimal roles. wahaha. i looooove the wings!!! i wanna be a mutant too!! jean grey was damn scary as pheonix sia. i will resist the urge to add in another movie spoiler. hmm... then wat the hell is the point of writing a mini movie review?? sighs. whatever it is i loved it ah. i want storm's bod and jean's hair. can? haha.
after the movie, rohana, muna and i went for coffee and cake at mccafe. well rohana didn't have anything lah, the 2 of us did. realised that muna and i have a lot in common much to rohana's exasperation. wahaha. so she just played sudoku while we entertained ourselves. might be going to sibu in a couple of weeks. yay! got something to do on my long weekend(s)!
er, the 1st long weekend i have to study for exams. 2nd long weekend i should also lah but hey, sun sand and sea are beckoning. who am i to refuse the invite? haha. one thing that won't be on the agenda for me for sure is underwater activities. hydrophobic lah. the most i'll do is play on the shore. perhaps i might try above water activities, but only with a lifejacket...
hmm i haven't packed my stuff yet for tomoro. malas ah. have to be in friggin' woodlands at 6 in the friggin' am. jokers. haven't recharged my camera batts or cleared the memory card either so i guess i will go do that... eventually.
after the movie, rohana, muna and i went for coffee and cake at mccafe. well rohana didn't have anything lah, the 2 of us did. realised that muna and i have a lot in common much to rohana's exasperation. wahaha. so she just played sudoku while we entertained ourselves. might be going to sibu in a couple of weeks. yay! got something to do on my long weekend(s)!
er, the 1st long weekend i have to study for exams. 2nd long weekend i should also lah but hey, sun sand and sea are beckoning. who am i to refuse the invite? haha. one thing that won't be on the agenda for me for sure is underwater activities. hydrophobic lah. the most i'll do is play on the shore. perhaps i might try above water activities, but only with a lifejacket...
hmm i haven't packed my stuff yet for tomoro. malas ah. have to be in friggin' woodlands at 6 in the friggin' am. jokers. haven't recharged my camera batts or cleared the memory card either so i guess i will go do that... eventually.
work is a 4 letter word
hmm i got 2 words ah. macam. sial. haha.
today is my last day in office before i leave for my sarawak trip. just so happens that they're doing construction and renovation in my office. guess when they're doing my row. that's right. mon. so kan, nari i have to remove all my stuff from my desk, including pc. nak letak mana sey??
abih tu, i was talking to some of my other colleagues. the impression i get is, selamat lah kalau kerja with my current super. sebab dianye style kan, suruh orang lain buat, dia tak buat sendiri. siak. i kinda notice already ah but at the moment i don't mind cos takde banyak kerja. yet. in the next 2 weeks tho, i think i will be pretty busy. especially kalau my super slow gila. banyak barang dia belum buat sey. procrastinate. good luck to him man. why? cos next week i will be in office for 3 days only. the following week, 4 days. 2 of those days i will be leaving office at around 3pm for my exams. wahaha. OT lah nampaknye untuk dia.
oh ya, went for a meeting with marketing yesterday. kinda cool. i like the manager who's in charge of advertising. she is damn organised man. compared to aku punye. wahaha. so right, now i have an insight as to how marketing works. well, minimal insight but better than nothing. think will be working closely with them so yay... macam exciting gitu.
i know i promised myself i was gonna b an examplary employee but... fuck it. i don't really give a damn. bad attitude yes. bite me. oh ya, writing in terrible malay cos takut orang baca dari belakang. as it is i am composing this in damn fine print ok. haha.
makkau, sakit ah my wrists. dah lah masih sejuk gila nak mampus. think i will end up with typical office ailments soon. hmm. ok will stop talking about work now and will write about something happy!
today is my last day in office before i leave for my sarawak trip. just so happens that they're doing construction and renovation in my office. guess when they're doing my row. that's right. mon. so kan, nari i have to remove all my stuff from my desk, including pc. nak letak mana sey??
abih tu, i was talking to some of my other colleagues. the impression i get is, selamat lah kalau kerja with my current super. sebab dianye style kan, suruh orang lain buat, dia tak buat sendiri. siak. i kinda notice already ah but at the moment i don't mind cos takde banyak kerja. yet. in the next 2 weeks tho, i think i will be pretty busy. especially kalau my super slow gila. banyak barang dia belum buat sey. procrastinate. good luck to him man. why? cos next week i will be in office for 3 days only. the following week, 4 days. 2 of those days i will be leaving office at around 3pm for my exams. wahaha. OT lah nampaknye untuk dia.
oh ya, went for a meeting with marketing yesterday. kinda cool. i like the manager who's in charge of advertising. she is damn organised man. compared to aku punye. wahaha. so right, now i have an insight as to how marketing works. well, minimal insight but better than nothing. think will be working closely with them so yay... macam exciting gitu.
i know i promised myself i was gonna b an examplary employee but... fuck it. i don't really give a damn. bad attitude yes. bite me. oh ya, writing in terrible malay cos takut orang baca dari belakang. as it is i am composing this in damn fine print ok. haha.
makkau, sakit ah my wrists. dah lah masih sejuk gila nak mampus. think i will end up with typical office ailments soon. hmm. ok will stop talking about work now and will write about something happy!
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