stress ah stress

i forgot to bitch about something else. last wed i did my 1st ever presentation in front of a 200- strong group of nsmen. i never said i was any good with presentations. i have never showed that i'm any good with presentations. so what the hell? was bloody nervous and i think i sucked. went too fast, was too nervous and made a couple of major mistakes. but at least they enjoyed it. i think. stupid me also wore a top that i think i look fat in. doh. did nothing for my confidence i tell you.

speaking of confidence, i have none. can't drive. can't do telemarketing. can't do sales. can't be counted on to get things done. sighs. i suck with practical tasks. even in aust, i wasn't great with the housekeeping and helping out with events and stuff. come to think of it, i even sucked at waitressing. hmm. then again, i only sucked when there was someone else there who was better at it. if i'm on my own or with, ahem, 'more challenged' people, then i'm totally competent. wahaha. the only thing i think i'm really good at is planning. but someone else has to execute it. i'll just supervise. haha.

back to the presentation. i have to do another one on fri for another group of 200 nsmen. 3 others are going with me but none of them are presenters. if i go blank or chicken out last minute, there won't be anyone there for back up. i'm pissing myself already.

on the bright side, this coming week i'll be in office for only 2 days. mon and tues on course then offday on wed. fri i won't be in office half the time cos we'll be coming in around 11.30 and leaving for the talk at about 5pm. sweet.

ok off to build someone a wayang kulit stage. oh crap, forgot about researching for characters... doo di doo di doo.