long time no see. kinda.

wow feels like it's been a while since i updated. what's been happening... hmm for latest news please refer to rohana's blog. wahaha. was just looking at my schedule and man, it's quite active for once. was just looking at my room and man, i seriously need to do some major spring cleaning. like, seriously. i got books on the floor, shopping bags, magazines, docs, everything everywhere. my wardrobe is also a huge huge mess. i hate it when i can't find my clothes. doesn't help that most are black and folded so they all look alike. haha. some of them are missing in action, i'm positive. question is, are the pieces lost under all my other stuff or have they been kidnapped and held against their will, alone and helpless in someone else's cupboard? come back my pretties, come baaaaack!

hmm what else... i feel like i finally understand what my purpose at work is. basically it's the same as my other attachment but it's disguised as something much more important and leceh. the message is: bring in the sales!! or we're gonna nail yo ass! sighs. i hate being profit driven. but salaries need to be paid, targets need to be met and the lights need to be switched on. so right, one of the newest tasks i'm handling is... research. market competition analysis. i don't really mind this actually, cos it means i have to read the news and just extract all the relevant info. do some surfing, make a few phone calls, put it all together in a nice, easy to read table cos the head loves tables. i hate excel. also get to mess around with the organisation's website and see how i can make our dept more noticeable.

there are worse things in life that i could do i guess.

i really wanna be good at this. now that i actually know my target, it's just a matter of reaching it. we're halfway there already apparently. no worries then... i love planning things out but i really really hate nitty gritty details. guess who has to take care of the details? also feel that i've been messing up at work a lot. it's nothing big, but it's a lot of little things. every single one of them seem to be stacked up against me by the seniors, u know. maybe it's just me thinking that but they don't really mind. nah. they definitely do mind. the ngiao type, u know. god i hate working with women. my senior exec is pretty ok though, she's nice. for now anyway. i better pick up the slack before everything comes crashing down on me. haha.

speaking of which, my dad got retrenched last week. he seems pretty happy about it, kinda like early retirement. i dunno... i am worried but everyone else doesn't seem to be. why?? i really don't get it. dad did get a pretty huge lump sum from the co. but it ain't gonna last forever man. oh well. we'll see what happens... but as of last week, i'm the so called 'sole breadwinner' in the household. cheers.