trepidation

so tomoro will be my first day at my new job. it kinda breaks my heart to think that i won't be reporting to pr.iso.ns. tomoro. :( my boss told me that he won't submit my resignation yet, and will gimme 3 wks to come back if i change my mind. haha. so nice rite? seems to be convinced that i will tho... hmm. does he know something i don't?

i should feel more enthusiastic but i don't... maybe cos i wasn't ready to leave yet. sigh. need a better mindset to go into this... more likely that i'm gonna be there for the next 3 years rather than 3 wks.

in other news, picked out baju for actual days and photoshoot. pretty happy with the selections but then ah, gonna need toned arms and back for the shoot. got a bustier gown and 2 halters. dang. if all else fails i'm just gonna bring along a shawl or fur stole or something. or hide behind f. haha. so if anyone knows where i can actually buy a fur stole or cape, hit me!

f's birthday is this sat and i'm running way behind on what i have planned. noooooo. life is what happens when u're busy planning...

and we're gonna be married exactly a month from tomoro. OMG. apparently i'm sharing this countdown with a lot of people. aeshon who's expecting her first child, and everyone whose thesis is due on 9 jan. haha. gonna be one heck of a january.