so today i got completely lost in toa payoh. or wherever the hell i was when looking for a building in toa payoh. took the train, got to the right station, and then i took the wrong bus. stupid street directory. yeah yeah i guess i should've asked at the interchange if it was the right bus but no, i didn't. so instead of being surprisingly on time (cos i thought i left the house late), i was extremely late. about half an hour. ok to some people that may be passable but to someone who prides herself on always being punctual, that is very shoddy work.
think the trainer wasn't too impressed, naturally. i wouldn't have been either. but i think she held it against me all day. whatever lah, move on. sheesh. the training is boring btw... the only thing that made my day was when i spotted a familiar face i hadn't seen in... oh, half a year or so.
ok time for some background. i first met this colleague of mine who i hadn't seen in a while at another training course way back in december. she's the young, hot, slim, funky type, u know. with really great hair. gawd i loved her hair. was super long and thick and spirally funky curls.
anyway. just now when i saw her, she was pregnant! and not just pregnant, heavily pregnant! like, gonna give birth next month, literally. i was like, wtf??? i didn't even know she was married! wahlau eh... naturally i was asking her all sorts of questions during the break. haha. can't help it, i get excited when i see people who are pregnant. especially if they're friends. or people i know. even more so if they're young and recently married. leaves me in awe man.
also found out that another girl i used to work with just got married this month too. nah, didn't get married on 060606. haha. this newlywed happens to live in tampines, so she got her husband to drop me off there. so sweet ah. thanks to her i came home early and i managed to go for a much needed think-deep-thoughts walk at the reservoir. did do some deep thinking, but no conclusion. as usual. sighs. reflect too much ready. hmm eh no, i did manage to draw some conclusions. or rather, i stopped pulling the wool over my eyes. doh. now for solutions. sighs...
back to the yummy mummy. she's my age, her husband is 27, and they're having a girl. she prefers boys. haha. couldn't agree more. so exciting lah. eta 21 july. i dunno whether it creeps them out, but i tend to just stare at pregnant women. even more so if they're the funky dressers. haha. mebbe cos i can't imagine myself in their shoes. at all. what they are doing seems like light years away for me. but mostly cos... i dunno. it means that they're settled i guess, and responsible enough to take care of another human being. starting a fresh new chapter, u know. having another purpose in life that is completely unselfish. isn't it great that they're gonna have a baby? seriously? freaking cool laaaaaaah. am i jealous? hell yeah. but like i said, can't imagine. i am soo not ready for that kinda thing. gonna enjoy watching other people do it for a while. sighs. so exciting.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Saturday, June 10, 2006
a sad state of affairs
it's a saturday. i'm home alone (well save for the sis i never speak to) cos my parents and the siblings i do speak to went off to trengganu this morn. not only am i bored, i'm hungry! there's no food in the house! well, nothing that i can easily turn into something satisfying. need to go buy bread... and milk... and juice. man... this means i have to get out of the house. wasn't planning on doing that except to go help huda wrap her berkat, but this got cancelled. i really have no reason to step out now.
hmm perhaps i could pay the gym a visit. do i really wanna do that though? just haven't been in the mood for the gym this past month. a whole month! i have never not gone to the gym this long before. whatever it was i always managed at least one session. this is bad. slowly sinking back into my bad habits... argh. help me, help me please. my favourite quote of late is: "motivation is what gets you started. habit is what keeps you going." brilliant. where is my motivation?
so, here i am, online at 12pm on a saturday with no plans. great. think i'll go read a book or clean my constantly messy room.
p.s. made my mind up for now- will be going for the masters in counselling. i figure this will benefit me a lot. you know, teach me to be more concerned about others, sharpen my listening skills, etc, etc. the design stuff i'll do on the side, cos from what i've seen, design courses want you to be super creative and really out there. out there apparel ain't gonna bring in the dough lor. well, not for a small family business anyway. still trying to convince my parents to change the shop name. bah.
hmm perhaps i could pay the gym a visit. do i really wanna do that though? just haven't been in the mood for the gym this past month. a whole month! i have never not gone to the gym this long before. whatever it was i always managed at least one session. this is bad. slowly sinking back into my bad habits... argh. help me, help me please. my favourite quote of late is: "motivation is what gets you started. habit is what keeps you going." brilliant. where is my motivation?
so, here i am, online at 12pm on a saturday with no plans. great. think i'll go read a book or clean my constantly messy room.
p.s. made my mind up for now- will be going for the masters in counselling. i figure this will benefit me a lot. you know, teach me to be more concerned about others, sharpen my listening skills, etc, etc. the design stuff i'll do on the side, cos from what i've seen, design courses want you to be super creative and really out there. out there apparel ain't gonna bring in the dough lor. well, not for a small family business anyway. still trying to convince my parents to change the shop name. bah.
Friday, June 09, 2006
sarawak part deux
hmm on the last night of the sarawak trip i was too damned tired to write some travel notes, even though the notebook and pen were right there beside me. haha. ran out of clothes by then too cos i wore my baju tidur to the wet market that morning and got the pant hems all wet and stinking like fish. market was abt 40 min away from the kampung we were staying at. bought ikan terubok and some kuih there. the fruits looked awesome. everything was so fresh and alive. really cool. only 4 of us adults plus 2 people from the kampung. the guy drove like a madman. haha.
when we came back, we went straight to the school to look see look see, then to a wedding. quite different from sg weddings, was between 9 to 12. when our bus drove by at 12.30, everything was cleared already sia! haha. kampung people are very hospitable and very nice. kampung was right by the river, with an awesome view of gunung san tubung.
what else did we do that day... oh ya, went to a museum, then pottery factory, then shopping... that's it i think. one of the students had a high fever so that was a bit of a drama, had to take her to the clinic and all.
ok think that's it. malasnye wanna update sommore. not tt anyone cares. haha. pics soon i guess.
when we came back, we went straight to the school to look see look see, then to a wedding. quite different from sg weddings, was between 9 to 12. when our bus drove by at 12.30, everything was cleared already sia! haha. kampung people are very hospitable and very nice. kampung was right by the river, with an awesome view of gunung san tubung.
what else did we do that day... oh ya, went to a museum, then pottery factory, then shopping... that's it i think. one of the students had a high fever so that was a bit of a drama, had to take her to the clinic and all.
ok think that's it. malasnye wanna update sommore. not tt anyone cares. haha. pics soon i guess.
sarawak part une
okies, travel notes about my sarawak trip. overdue, i know, but that's just me. slacker. haha. i still haven't finished unpacking my carry on bag...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
while i was at work...
080606 8.50am thurs
thank god thank god thank god this is my last day of work for this week. no wonder office workers look forward to the weekend so much. now i understand. saya tak suka laaaah. extremely tempted to break my bond. i dunno what it is but i seem to have lost my sense of responsibility and commitment. i couldn't care less who gets affected if i do run off. it's not like i'm planning on bumming around, you know. of cos i'm gonna look for another job. question is, when should i start?
just found out from s. that he will bercuti panjang the whole of july. macam siak, skarang baru bilang! this means that whatever dia sedang buat skarang, aku lah yang kena buat. hmm. i don't mind ah actually. yay yay takde s., i can do my own work. i hate being supervised lah. seriously.
another thing, i think i need to do some soul searching. seem to have lost my sense of direction (no, not the literal one. that one i never had in the 1st place so how to lose? haha). hmm... time to do some meditation and quiet thinking.
9.09am
hmm s. belum sampai. kalau nari dia tak datang, relek jugak. haha. since skarang dia takde, boleh lah action sikit.
i have been playing with the idea of shaving my head for charity. i waaaant. a few people have told me that it wouldn't be professional to come to work with a shaved head. if you think about it, it's only bald for what, a week or so? after that grow back ready... therefore, i CAN do this. worse come to worse wear a scarf or tudung to work lor. or hats. i have hats! haha.
yesterday on the way home in the train, i saw this girl with lots of moles. when i say moles, i mean the huge ones with hair growing out of them. yes, eew. she had them everywhere. could tell that there had been attempts to remove some. by what means, i don't know. was extremely facsinated, and it made me feel really grateful that my moles are small and cute. haha. really ah, kesian.
thank god thank god thank god this is my last day of work for this week. no wonder office workers look forward to the weekend so much. now i understand. saya tak suka laaaah. extremely tempted to break my bond. i dunno what it is but i seem to have lost my sense of responsibility and commitment. i couldn't care less who gets affected if i do run off. it's not like i'm planning on bumming around, you know. of cos i'm gonna look for another job. question is, when should i start?
just found out from s. that he will bercuti panjang the whole of july. macam siak, skarang baru bilang! this means that whatever dia sedang buat skarang, aku lah yang kena buat. hmm. i don't mind ah actually. yay yay takde s., i can do my own work. i hate being supervised lah. seriously.
another thing, i think i need to do some soul searching. seem to have lost my sense of direction (no, not the literal one. that one i never had in the 1st place so how to lose? haha). hmm... time to do some meditation and quiet thinking.
9.09am
hmm s. belum sampai. kalau nari dia tak datang, relek jugak. haha. since skarang dia takde, boleh lah action sikit.
i have been playing with the idea of shaving my head for charity. i waaaant. a few people have told me that it wouldn't be professional to come to work with a shaved head. if you think about it, it's only bald for what, a week or so? after that grow back ready... therefore, i CAN do this. worse come to worse wear a scarf or tudung to work lor. or hats. i have hats! haha.
yesterday on the way home in the train, i saw this girl with lots of moles. when i say moles, i mean the huge ones with hair growing out of them. yes, eew. she had them everywhere. could tell that there had been attempts to remove some. by what means, i don't know. was extremely facsinated, and it made me feel really grateful that my moles are small and cute. haha. really ah, kesian.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i *love* my job
ok bes, supervisor (s.) just went for a meeting so free sikit nak buat kerja. haha. i am so damn good at this act busy thing. anyways, i think i'm not cut out for working a 9 to 5 ah. or in my case, 8.30am - 5.20pm. i still feel lost in this department... mebbe cos i have no clue what this loans business is all about, and i'm expected to coordinate input and turn them into meaningful reports... like, wtf sia? thinking of asking my s. if i can kepo kepo and get attached to individuals from different sections on a monthly basis as well as do my own work so that i can get a feel of what's going on in general...
i hate not having a clue. at the same time, i don't really wanna ask people who don't seem willing to help and seem too busy even if they do wanna help. mebbe i should just be more thick skinned. will probably talk to the young manager and give her some suggestions on orientation of new staff. wahaha. takde kerja cari kerja. need to talk to her about some internal scheme to convert current staff in other depts to my dept or something. sambil menyelam, minum air!
one big big question that i have been grappling with is- should i stay or should i go? cos it'll obviously cost me if i break my bond kan. if i leave at the end of one year, this july... have to pay back about $3k+. wahlau eh. relek sua. then again, the only thing that's keeping me here is the pay and my own stubborness. never say die!! haha. if i could last 6 mths in a sales position headed by a honkie and a yankee, surely i can stay here for the whole of my 2 year sentence right? right.
hmm ok just got back from lunch. s. is not back yet so yay i have some time to myself... haha. pretty lucky that s. is quite relek and doesn't gimme deadlines. at the same time, there is no sense of urgency either. hmm. dunno what kinda environment i prefer. i think relek. but the work you do has to be significant lah. i'm starting to feel a bit more optimistic about this whole thing for some reason. it's out of my comfort zone but hey i guess that's how you grow. grow into what i dunno ah.
my masters plans... i'm a bit doubtful now if this is the right path for me. god knows (and you guys know) how unempathetic and insensitive i am. haha. one of my friends says that this is a good thing though, cos you can't get too emotional and attached in that kinda job. and i have the necessary analytical skills. true true. should i go back to my first love and sign up with nafa or lasalle instead? hmm... decisions decisions.
i hate not having a clue. at the same time, i don't really wanna ask people who don't seem willing to help and seem too busy even if they do wanna help. mebbe i should just be more thick skinned. will probably talk to the young manager and give her some suggestions on orientation of new staff. wahaha. takde kerja cari kerja. need to talk to her about some internal scheme to convert current staff in other depts to my dept or something. sambil menyelam, minum air!
one big big question that i have been grappling with is- should i stay or should i go? cos it'll obviously cost me if i break my bond kan. if i leave at the end of one year, this july... have to pay back about $3k+. wahlau eh. relek sua. then again, the only thing that's keeping me here is the pay and my own stubborness. never say die!! haha. if i could last 6 mths in a sales position headed by a honkie and a yankee, surely i can stay here for the whole of my 2 year sentence right? right.
hmm ok just got back from lunch. s. is not back yet so yay i have some time to myself... haha. pretty lucky that s. is quite relek and doesn't gimme deadlines. at the same time, there is no sense of urgency either. hmm. dunno what kinda environment i prefer. i think relek. but the work you do has to be significant lah. i'm starting to feel a bit more optimistic about this whole thing for some reason. it's out of my comfort zone but hey i guess that's how you grow. grow into what i dunno ah.
my masters plans... i'm a bit doubtful now if this is the right path for me. god knows (and you guys know) how unempathetic and insensitive i am. haha. one of my friends says that this is a good thing though, cos you can't get too emotional and attached in that kinda job. and i have the necessary analytical skills. true true. should i go back to my first love and sign up with nafa or lasalle instead? hmm... decisions decisions.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
060606
hmm just adding something in here cos it's a nice number. i have 30 min left before this special day ends so i wanna get in there in case i don't blog/ don't finish my post in time... got plenty to talk about, don't worry. updates akan datang... not that you care, of cos. wahaha.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
happiness
yesterday i watched x- men with rohana and gang. for details please refer to rohana's blog post. wahaha. i absolutely adored the movie!! sat next to muna and we were squealing and getting excited whenever the hunks came on screen. for me it was wolverine and angel, for her it was cyclops and angel. i will not add in a movie spoiler so i will just say that angle and cyclops had pretty minimal roles. wahaha. i looooove the wings!!! i wanna be a mutant too!! jean grey was damn scary as pheonix sia. i will resist the urge to add in another movie spoiler. hmm... then wat the hell is the point of writing a mini movie review?? sighs. whatever it is i loved it ah. i want storm's bod and jean's hair. can? haha.
after the movie, rohana, muna and i went for coffee and cake at mccafe. well rohana didn't have anything lah, the 2 of us did. realised that muna and i have a lot in common much to rohana's exasperation. wahaha. so she just played sudoku while we entertained ourselves. might be going to sibu in a couple of weeks. yay! got something to do on my long weekend(s)!
er, the 1st long weekend i have to study for exams. 2nd long weekend i should also lah but hey, sun sand and sea are beckoning. who am i to refuse the invite? haha. one thing that won't be on the agenda for me for sure is underwater activities. hydrophobic lah. the most i'll do is play on the shore. perhaps i might try above water activities, but only with a lifejacket...
hmm i haven't packed my stuff yet for tomoro. malas ah. have to be in friggin' woodlands at 6 in the friggin' am. jokers. haven't recharged my camera batts or cleared the memory card either so i guess i will go do that... eventually.
after the movie, rohana, muna and i went for coffee and cake at mccafe. well rohana didn't have anything lah, the 2 of us did. realised that muna and i have a lot in common much to rohana's exasperation. wahaha. so she just played sudoku while we entertained ourselves. might be going to sibu in a couple of weeks. yay! got something to do on my long weekend(s)!
er, the 1st long weekend i have to study for exams. 2nd long weekend i should also lah but hey, sun sand and sea are beckoning. who am i to refuse the invite? haha. one thing that won't be on the agenda for me for sure is underwater activities. hydrophobic lah. the most i'll do is play on the shore. perhaps i might try above water activities, but only with a lifejacket...
hmm i haven't packed my stuff yet for tomoro. malas ah. have to be in friggin' woodlands at 6 in the friggin' am. jokers. haven't recharged my camera batts or cleared the memory card either so i guess i will go do that... eventually.
work is a 4 letter word
hmm i got 2 words ah. macam. sial. haha.
today is my last day in office before i leave for my sarawak trip. just so happens that they're doing construction and renovation in my office. guess when they're doing my row. that's right. mon. so kan, nari i have to remove all my stuff from my desk, including pc. nak letak mana sey??
abih tu, i was talking to some of my other colleagues. the impression i get is, selamat lah kalau kerja with my current super. sebab dianye style kan, suruh orang lain buat, dia tak buat sendiri. siak. i kinda notice already ah but at the moment i don't mind cos takde banyak kerja. yet. in the next 2 weeks tho, i think i will be pretty busy. especially kalau my super slow gila. banyak barang dia belum buat sey. procrastinate. good luck to him man. why? cos next week i will be in office for 3 days only. the following week, 4 days. 2 of those days i will be leaving office at around 3pm for my exams. wahaha. OT lah nampaknye untuk dia.
oh ya, went for a meeting with marketing yesterday. kinda cool. i like the manager who's in charge of advertising. she is damn organised man. compared to aku punye. wahaha. so right, now i have an insight as to how marketing works. well, minimal insight but better than nothing. think will be working closely with them so yay... macam exciting gitu.
i know i promised myself i was gonna b an examplary employee but... fuck it. i don't really give a damn. bad attitude yes. bite me. oh ya, writing in terrible malay cos takut orang baca dari belakang. as it is i am composing this in damn fine print ok. haha.
makkau, sakit ah my wrists. dah lah masih sejuk gila nak mampus. think i will end up with typical office ailments soon. hmm. ok will stop talking about work now and will write about something happy!
today is my last day in office before i leave for my sarawak trip. just so happens that they're doing construction and renovation in my office. guess when they're doing my row. that's right. mon. so kan, nari i have to remove all my stuff from my desk, including pc. nak letak mana sey??
abih tu, i was talking to some of my other colleagues. the impression i get is, selamat lah kalau kerja with my current super. sebab dianye style kan, suruh orang lain buat, dia tak buat sendiri. siak. i kinda notice already ah but at the moment i don't mind cos takde banyak kerja. yet. in the next 2 weeks tho, i think i will be pretty busy. especially kalau my super slow gila. banyak barang dia belum buat sey. procrastinate. good luck to him man. why? cos next week i will be in office for 3 days only. the following week, 4 days. 2 of those days i will be leaving office at around 3pm for my exams. wahaha. OT lah nampaknye untuk dia.
oh ya, went for a meeting with marketing yesterday. kinda cool. i like the manager who's in charge of advertising. she is damn organised man. compared to aku punye. wahaha. so right, now i have an insight as to how marketing works. well, minimal insight but better than nothing. think will be working closely with them so yay... macam exciting gitu.
i know i promised myself i was gonna b an examplary employee but... fuck it. i don't really give a damn. bad attitude yes. bite me. oh ya, writing in terrible malay cos takut orang baca dari belakang. as it is i am composing this in damn fine print ok. haha.
makkau, sakit ah my wrists. dah lah masih sejuk gila nak mampus. think i will end up with typical office ailments soon. hmm. ok will stop talking about work now and will write about something happy!
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
premiere jour
had my first day in my new department just now. i have work to do already! i have job responsibilities! i have my own desk! woohoo! i also have a teleconference tomoro morning. oh man.
i'm scared ah. people have expectations of me now. damn. what if i fall short?? my 'work buddy' is the senior exec. there will be 5 of us (managers, senior execs, execs) under the senior manager. we will be responsible for product development, marketing, etc. i have to start reading the friggin' papers lor. financial section no less. and get this- i have to use a financial calculator!! is there no escape?? been avoiding the stupid thing like crazy and now it's here to haunt me forever. well, for as long as i stay in this department anyway.
think i was the first one in office this morning. or it seemed like it. came in at about 8.15am (8.15AM!!) and the doors were shut, there didn't seem to be anyone around. i was like, hmm... strange. so i went down, had a little chat with the guard, and went upstairs again. the doors were miraculously open. stupid thing is, i thought there was a pin code to open the glass doors. so i was standing there, looking around for a bell or something to press so the 2 persons i saw inside could come open the door. it then dawned on me that they were staring at me and wondering why the hell i wasn't going in since the door wasn't locked in anyway at all. doh.
people start at 9 in this area. i wanna stick to 8.30. haha. though i have a feeling either they will ask me to start at 9 too or i will have to stay till 6 anyway. bummer. i tell you ah, i hate peak hour traffic man. i cannot even begin to imagine how many unwashed bodies i came in contact with during my journey to the office. these people don't bathe in the morning man. and they smell like it!! what's so hard about a quick shower in the morning before you leave? it's not like we have sub- zero temperatures! bloody hell. it did not help that there was a lingering stench of stale cheese in the bus on the journey home. can die ok. disgusting.
now if you will excuse me i have to go through the financial section in the past sunday times and get clippings. of what? i have no idea. i'm hoping i will know it when i see it. this is called acting hardworking. wahaha. i'm still in slacker mode. gotta snap out of it man. soon.
did i mention that it is bloody freezing in the office? it is bloody freezing. was in the meeting room with my buddy and i couldn't take proper notes cos my fingers were almost numb and my nails had turned purple. i kid you not. wahlau. guess who has to take minutes at meetings...? i think i should invest in gloves.
i'm scared ah. people have expectations of me now. damn. what if i fall short?? my 'work buddy' is the senior exec. there will be 5 of us (managers, senior execs, execs) under the senior manager. we will be responsible for product development, marketing, etc. i have to start reading the friggin' papers lor. financial section no less. and get this- i have to use a financial calculator!! is there no escape?? been avoiding the stupid thing like crazy and now it's here to haunt me forever. well, for as long as i stay in this department anyway.
think i was the first one in office this morning. or it seemed like it. came in at about 8.15am (8.15AM!!) and the doors were shut, there didn't seem to be anyone around. i was like, hmm... strange. so i went down, had a little chat with the guard, and went upstairs again. the doors were miraculously open. stupid thing is, i thought there was a pin code to open the glass doors. so i was standing there, looking around for a bell or something to press so the 2 persons i saw inside could come open the door. it then dawned on me that they were staring at me and wondering why the hell i wasn't going in since the door wasn't locked in anyway at all. doh.
people start at 9 in this area. i wanna stick to 8.30. haha. though i have a feeling either they will ask me to start at 9 too or i will have to stay till 6 anyway. bummer. i tell you ah, i hate peak hour traffic man. i cannot even begin to imagine how many unwashed bodies i came in contact with during my journey to the office. these people don't bathe in the morning man. and they smell like it!! what's so hard about a quick shower in the morning before you leave? it's not like we have sub- zero temperatures! bloody hell. it did not help that there was a lingering stench of stale cheese in the bus on the journey home. can die ok. disgusting.
now if you will excuse me i have to go through the financial section in the past sunday times and get clippings. of what? i have no idea. i'm hoping i will know it when i see it. this is called acting hardworking. wahaha. i'm still in slacker mode. gotta snap out of it man. soon.
did i mention that it is bloody freezing in the office? it is bloody freezing. was in the meeting room with my buddy and i couldn't take proper notes cos my fingers were almost numb and my nails had turned purple. i kid you not. wahlau. guess who has to take minutes at meetings...? i think i should invest in gloves.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
although we've come to the end of the road...
today was my last day of work in my department. i use the term 'work' loosely. the first thing i did in the morn was send an email to the slacker of a HR person, asking him to hurry up and send me a confirmation email about my transfer. the week before, all the bosses involved, the HR person and i already agreed verbally that it was going to happen. is it that hard to write a frigging email to make it official?? jeeeeeez. as you can imagine, i was all hyper and anxious the whole week, waiting for it to drop. why? cos it ain't over till the HR person sends me the goddamn email.
he did. at 11.45am. which is good, cos i told myself that if it wasn't done by noon i would call him up and bug his ass off. the manager at my new department was nice enough to send me a welcome email cos she isn't gonna be around tomoro morn when i show up. so sweet right? haha. i feel welcome already!
so yeah, all i did at work today was go for a 2 hour lunch with a few colleagues, pack up my things, go around talking to people and take some photos. haha. good stuff. then sometime in the afternoon my team leader called my hp and asked me to go upstairs (we have a 1st floor and 2nd floor). see, now usually i'm rotting away at my cubicle on the 2nd floor, but today i got ousted from my seat cos someone needed the space for telemarketing. i went downstairs to use one of the tablets lah, and to kacau the people there. when i went upstairs, surprise surprise, there was like a farewell so called 'tea'. except that there wasn't any tea, but there were loads of otah-otah, epok-epok, nuggets and the like.
my team leader kinda made a short speech, then i had to make one. after which my lady boss made me do something stupid. i had to pick up a nugget with my teeth and dip it in the sauce. now we all know that when your face is that close to sauce and she's pinning your arms down, only one thing can happen. thank god it didn't, cos i had the sense to pin her arms down instead. wahaha. uh and because of my own big mouth, i had to pass the nugget to her. doh. cos when they suggested i had to dip it in sauce, i was like, dip then wat? pass to someone ah? yes i know. stupidity. it was fun though. haha.
oh oh i got a card and presents too! i love cards! the presents were a ceramic box with my birth month stone(peridot) on it and a charm bracelet. i've always wanted a charm bracelet! hehe. so exciting.
after having spent the first 7 months of my working life in that department, i do feel sad about leaving. even though i've been looking forward to it for a long time. i'm just hoping that there will be nice people in the new dept and that i'll be able to handle whatever they throw at me. cos i'm planning on being an examplary executive. first 3 months must be a bit power, then can slack. haha.
just ironed my outfit for tomoro's '1st day at work'. i'm wearing the pants i promised not to wear again cos it's got bits of elastic sticking out. i'm wearing them cos i need to wear black pants (ahem) and i can't fit (yet!) into the other dark coloured pants that i have. wahaha. sighs. bloody slacker. should get my expanding waist to the gym pronto. lucky working nearby now. phew. oh i'm also wearing the shirt i bought for regular price at the robinson's sale. go figure. it's quite gigolo if you ask me. a bit shiny and uh... hmmm. well i like it. so there.
i can't believe i'm reporting at 8.30am tomoro. 8.30AM!! urgh. who the hell goes to work that early. i'm used to waking up at that time dammit. wahaha. ok guess i should go tido and set my alarm and all that. goodnight and good luck.
he did. at 11.45am. which is good, cos i told myself that if it wasn't done by noon i would call him up and bug his ass off. the manager at my new department was nice enough to send me a welcome email cos she isn't gonna be around tomoro morn when i show up. so sweet right? haha. i feel welcome already!
so yeah, all i did at work today was go for a 2 hour lunch with a few colleagues, pack up my things, go around talking to people and take some photos. haha. good stuff. then sometime in the afternoon my team leader called my hp and asked me to go upstairs (we have a 1st floor and 2nd floor). see, now usually i'm rotting away at my cubicle on the 2nd floor, but today i got ousted from my seat cos someone needed the space for telemarketing. i went downstairs to use one of the tablets lah, and to kacau the people there. when i went upstairs, surprise surprise, there was like a farewell so called 'tea'. except that there wasn't any tea, but there were loads of otah-otah, epok-epok, nuggets and the like.
my team leader kinda made a short speech, then i had to make one. after which my lady boss made me do something stupid. i had to pick up a nugget with my teeth and dip it in the sauce. now we all know that when your face is that close to sauce and she's pinning your arms down, only one thing can happen. thank god it didn't, cos i had the sense to pin her arms down instead. wahaha. uh and because of my own big mouth, i had to pass the nugget to her. doh. cos when they suggested i had to dip it in sauce, i was like, dip then wat? pass to someone ah? yes i know. stupidity. it was fun though. haha.
oh oh i got a card and presents too! i love cards! the presents were a ceramic box with my birth month stone(peridot) on it and a charm bracelet. i've always wanted a charm bracelet! hehe. so exciting.
after having spent the first 7 months of my working life in that department, i do feel sad about leaving. even though i've been looking forward to it for a long time. i'm just hoping that there will be nice people in the new dept and that i'll be able to handle whatever they throw at me. cos i'm planning on being an examplary executive. first 3 months must be a bit power, then can slack. haha.
just ironed my outfit for tomoro's '1st day at work'. i'm wearing the pants i promised not to wear again cos it's got bits of elastic sticking out. i'm wearing them cos i need to wear black pants (ahem) and i can't fit (yet!) into the other dark coloured pants that i have. wahaha. sighs. bloody slacker. should get my expanding waist to the gym pronto. lucky working nearby now. phew. oh i'm also wearing the shirt i bought for regular price at the robinson's sale. go figure. it's quite gigolo if you ask me. a bit shiny and uh... hmmm. well i like it. so there.
i can't believe i'm reporting at 8.30am tomoro. 8.30AM!! urgh. who the hell goes to work that early. i'm used to waking up at that time dammit. wahaha. ok guess i should go tido and set my alarm and all that. goodnight and good luck.
Sunday, May 21, 2006
keep walking
went for the new paper big walk this morning. woke up at the ungodly hour of 0530hrs. i don't even wake up that early for work. or anything else for that matter. thank goodness i'm on night shift tomoro. mmm sleep...
saw a few familiar faces at the event. it was crowded. and hot. i hate the feeling of the sticky, sweaty bodies of total strangers rubbing against my equally sticky and sweaty arms. grossness. my companion for the day was diyana j. haha thanks for letting me pick the makan place.
what can i say about the event... it was ok lah. like the other big walks. i'm gonna make a complaint tho. do u know that there were no water stations until after the midpoint?? ONE water station over a distance of 10km. that is just plain mean. and stupid. who the hell decided that one?? dah lah panas. siak. gggrrr.
ok ah sleepy. zzzzzzz....
saw a few familiar faces at the event. it was crowded. and hot. i hate the feeling of the sticky, sweaty bodies of total strangers rubbing against my equally sticky and sweaty arms. grossness. my companion for the day was diyana j. haha thanks for letting me pick the makan place.
what can i say about the event... it was ok lah. like the other big walks. i'm gonna make a complaint tho. do u know that there were no water stations until after the midpoint?? ONE water station over a distance of 10km. that is just plain mean. and stupid. who the hell decided that one?? dah lah panas. siak. gggrrr.
ok ah sleepy. zzzzzzz....
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
been a long time comin'...
the news i'd been waiting for forever finally came just now... i'm getting posted to my new department! hopefully effective monday but my current supervisor thinks it's too short notice and wants me to stay a couple more days. i'm like, nooooooooooooooo! of course, i can't do anything about it lah since i can't tell her how miserable i am in this dept. haha. did i mention i have almost nothing to do? will bug her tomoro about when i'm actually leaving. if i must start on mon, die ah must do everything by tomoro. cos i'm off on fri. hmm...
oh ya, speaking of bugging, it works, people. if i hadn't emailed the HR dude to enquire on the status of my posting i don't think he would've told me. if i hadn't gone to my supervisor after lunch and asked her whether she got his email, she would've forgotten about it. cos when i asked she was like, ya i think i glanced through it just now... like, hello?? it's been a long time coming from my point of view and she just glanced?? sungguh tak adil. but then again i guess she has more important stuff to do than worry about my welfare. haha.
i'm looking forward to what could possibly be my last offday in a while. why? cos i got me a ticket to da vinci code! hehe. watching the morning show. good ah, not crowded, can relax. yes, one ticket. singular. i'm back to my solo movie outing on off day routine. dunno if it can still be called routine if this is the last time i'm doing it though... hmm. might also drop by queensway to look for running shoes... hmm...
anyways, back to work issues. think i might be in a spot of trouble, the kind where they might cut off my access to some of the databases and perhaps issue a warning letter too. they were questioning why i was accessing the info of a vip customer. the truth of the matter is, i was just plain kepo. wanted to see if this person was a customer. this person was. so that's about it. curiousity satisfied. i can't even remember anything i saw. nothing much to see anyway. don't think they will see it from my point of view though. curiosity killed the cat. indeed. mampus aku. no, i didn't tell my supers. i bet they already know. or they will soon. haha.
seriously, do you think i'm in trouble?
oh ya, speaking of bugging, it works, people. if i hadn't emailed the HR dude to enquire on the status of my posting i don't think he would've told me. if i hadn't gone to my supervisor after lunch and asked her whether she got his email, she would've forgotten about it. cos when i asked she was like, ya i think i glanced through it just now... like, hello?? it's been a long time coming from my point of view and she just glanced?? sungguh tak adil. but then again i guess she has more important stuff to do than worry about my welfare. haha.
i'm looking forward to what could possibly be my last offday in a while. why? cos i got me a ticket to da vinci code! hehe. watching the morning show. good ah, not crowded, can relax. yes, one ticket. singular. i'm back to my solo movie outing on off day routine. dunno if it can still be called routine if this is the last time i'm doing it though... hmm. might also drop by queensway to look for running shoes... hmm...
anyways, back to work issues. think i might be in a spot of trouble, the kind where they might cut off my access to some of the databases and perhaps issue a warning letter too. they were questioning why i was accessing the info of a vip customer. the truth of the matter is, i was just plain kepo. wanted to see if this person was a customer. this person was. so that's about it. curiousity satisfied. i can't even remember anything i saw. nothing much to see anyway. don't think they will see it from my point of view though. curiosity killed the cat. indeed. mampus aku. no, i didn't tell my supers. i bet they already know. or they will soon. haha.
seriously, do you think i'm in trouble?
Monday, May 15, 2006
jiwang song
hmm was just listening to one of my old cds and came across this song.
just as i am- guy sebastian
i could be a mystery cover up my heart
never show my emotions always keep you in the dark
i could fire a funny line impress you for a while
hide the way that im feeling behind my smile
but i dont wanna lie be something that im not
cant promise you the moon and stars but i
swear to you my love
never show my emotions always keep you in the dark
i could fire a funny line impress you for a while
hide the way that im feeling behind my smile
but i dont wanna lie be something that im not
cant promise you the moon and stars but i
swear to you my love
just as i am
i give myself to you
just as i am
ill never make it through
coz you are the love i need
the life inside of me
so here i stand
just as i am
i can try playin shy or charm you with my words
let you see through the sweet heart which is only there but never works
i could end not pretend and tell you how i feel
coz its a chance we're takin with our love so real
now i dont wanna lie be sumthin that im not
cant promise you the moon and stars but i
swear to you my love
just as i am
i give myself to you
just as i am
ill never make it through
coz you are the love i need
the life inside of me
so here i stand
just as i am
and we'll be together
for always coz true colors never lie
your my everything
my life is in your hands
so take me
just as i am
i give myself to you
just as i am
ill never make it through
coz you are the love i need
the life inside of me
so here i stand
just as i am
it's tv night people. au revoir.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
which executive are you?
Nazira, you're an Art Director!
Suit, schmuit. For you, work isn't about power lunches and hostile takeovers. You're all about creativity and inspiration. That's why you'd be an ideal Art Director. We can just picture you at a draft table or computer, cooking up the perfect logo or layout. Passionate and imaginative, you're better than anyone at coming up with ingenious solutions to difficult problems. (And at making them look great!) You've got artistic flare and then some, and you're a pretty darn good leader, too. Nothing's more exciting than brainstorming with a group of talented, creative people and seeing a project take shape, right? No doubt about it, there's a promotion in your future. So keep up the good work!
clearly, i'm in the wrong job.
do this here.
clearly, i'm in the wrong job.
do this here.
Saturday, May 13, 2006
lights are on but no one's home
i'm so bloody bored it's not funny... sighs. i need to find/ rediscover a passion. soon.
so right, the other day i went to see my bro's new place. it's pretty cool, cos it's prison officer quarters. no, it does not look any different from normal flats. in fact, it's a bit condo- ish. minus the pool. great view of the airport. urhm and the prison. look out the living room window and you can see the inmates if they're outside! hmm...
you know how when you enter a house, you either feel really creeped out or really welcome? we felt really welcome. my favourite room in the house is gonna be the baby's (akan datang) room. and guess what? my sis- in- law wants me to decorate it. :D woohoo! think the extent of 'decorate' is just painting the walls with murals and stuff but who cares? get to exercise my almost dead creativity. hmm gonna need some inspiration... ilham right? this reminds me of that song... 'beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang/ meraba aku dalam kelam...izinkan ku mencuri hayalan denganmu... kau ilhamku' or something like that. think if i ever get a son i'll name him ilham. haha berangan.
anyway.
my mum came into my room just now and dropped some news- i'll probably have to shift to my bro's room after he clears all his stuff out and give up my room to my bro and sisters. noooooooo! cos she says bro's room is too small for the 3 of them to share. agreed. all of them are currently sleeping in the master bedroom and this is a hassle when my dad has to go to work in the morn. agreed. i can claim all the wardrobe space in the room and fill it with my junk without anyone disturbing it. agreed.
why do they not want to sleep in my bro's room? cos the air- con ain't working. bah. i shouldn't have switched my air- con on... cos now they know it's working and i hadn't been using it for the past few months out of sheer choice and not cos i can't. double bah. i'm gonna have to relocate all my worldly possessions, and will possibly have to do this again a few months from now when we shift house due to the enbloc (god willing). triple bah.
then again, what the hell am i complaining about? i LOVE shifting! even if it's just to the room yonder, it represents a fresh start. i also get to declutter and throw out stuff that i'm holding on to due to sentimental reasons but don't really care about anymore as the years dull the memories. woohoo!
uh so yeah. that's the story. i forget what the conclusion is.
so right, the other day i went to see my bro's new place. it's pretty cool, cos it's prison officer quarters. no, it does not look any different from normal flats. in fact, it's a bit condo- ish. minus the pool. great view of the airport. urhm and the prison. look out the living room window and you can see the inmates if they're outside! hmm...
you know how when you enter a house, you either feel really creeped out or really welcome? we felt really welcome. my favourite room in the house is gonna be the baby's (akan datang) room. and guess what? my sis- in- law wants me to decorate it. :D woohoo! think the extent of 'decorate' is just painting the walls with murals and stuff but who cares? get to exercise my almost dead creativity. hmm gonna need some inspiration... ilham right? this reminds me of that song... 'beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang/ meraba aku dalam kelam...izinkan ku mencuri hayalan denganmu... kau ilhamku' or something like that. think if i ever get a son i'll name him ilham. haha berangan.
anyway.
my mum came into my room just now and dropped some news- i'll probably have to shift to my bro's room after he clears all his stuff out and give up my room to my bro and sisters. noooooooo! cos she says bro's room is too small for the 3 of them to share. agreed. all of them are currently sleeping in the master bedroom and this is a hassle when my dad has to go to work in the morn. agreed. i can claim all the wardrobe space in the room and fill it with my junk without anyone disturbing it. agreed.
why do they not want to sleep in my bro's room? cos the air- con ain't working. bah. i shouldn't have switched my air- con on... cos now they know it's working and i hadn't been using it for the past few months out of sheer choice and not cos i can't. double bah. i'm gonna have to relocate all my worldly possessions, and will possibly have to do this again a few months from now when we shift house due to the enbloc (god willing). triple bah.
then again, what the hell am i complaining about? i LOVE shifting! even if it's just to the room yonder, it represents a fresh start. i also get to declutter and throw out stuff that i'm holding on to due to sentimental reasons but don't really care about anymore as the years dull the memories. woohoo!
uh so yeah. that's the story. i forget what the conclusion is.
Friday, May 12, 2006
what's the point in being slow, let's just get this show on the road
i'm updating cos shaz called me a silly cow for not doing so.
not.
wahaha. i went to the gym today after a 2 week 'hiatus'. i didn't blow off today's session cos i had an appointment with one of the trainers. a so called 'follow up' session to see my progress. ie. they want me to part with my moolah after that and give it to them so they can make me do stuff i already know i should but don't cos i'm too lazy and i lack discipline. the last time they attempted this was august 2005.
good news: i'm maintaining my current weight (note: lighter than in aug 2005. last time i weighed myself was last week) and my body fat percentage has dropped. :) this means that i've lost about 5kg of pure fat. woohoo!
bad news: i'm not doing enough resistance and this means that i might lose muscle cos i'm doing too much cardio. it's complicated. no wonder i don't feel as good now as i did last time even though my weight is the same. my muscles are atrophying!!
i also think this is cos i'm more or less in starvation mode. which is not good. i hate it. but most days i have to choose between the devil and the deep blue sea. i don't wanna eat anything too fatty/ oily/ processed but that's all i got. on the other hand i'm too lazy/ busy to make healthy stuff for myself and it's hard to find such nutritious stuff where i work.
so what's the solution? don't eat lor. it sucks. most of the time i grudgingly swallow something cos i might pass out from being so damn hungry. not good. need to get some sort of control over my diet mans.i also wander around aimlessly or shop during my lunch hour cos i can't decide what to have. hmm. yes, i think my bank account is suffering along with my body.
anyways, it was a good pt (personal training) session, felt muscles that i forgot existed. did crunches for the 1st time in god knows how long. i have a valid excuse for this- didn't wanna disturb my piercing with all the movement. wahaha. after the session was when the real challenge began.
he tried to offer me pt sessions, but of cos cannot take just one lah. like a package. mahal gila ok. relek sua. then finally he called his manager to talk to me. fuck, was really in the shits then. the manager was hawt. huge indian guy with rebonded hair, glasses, great bod and good english. cair. haha. no lah, maintain, of cos. he tried his best, offered me something that i found really really hard to resist, but my head just kept screaming nooooooooooooo!
cos it would imply that i can't do it on my own. i've already lost 10 on my own dammit, i can manage the 10 more. hmph. the trainer and the manager even went so far as to compliment my 'beautiful eyes' and 'great smile'. pfft. tell me something i don't know dudes! wahaha. think manager dude sat with me for almost an hour but i managed to hold my ground. haha. your intimidation techniques don't work on me man. pick on someone your own size!
he also loosened up after a while, cos he realised i wasn't about to get pressured into signing up on the spot. told me about this thing called the 'onion butt'. i was like, wtf mate? then he explained, it's the kind of butt, when the person walks into the room and you see it, you wanna cry cos it just looks soo damn good. waahahahahahahhaha. kelakar gila.
this onion butt reminded me of a certain tag that said 'butts can be built with squats but boobs are a gift from god.' adigal should know what i'm talking about. haha. time to build! if eva longoria can add 2 inches to her butt then so can i! then again she has a trainer... oh. wait... doh.
i'm glad i went though. cos it has given me my mojo back. very motivated to go the last mile(s) now. just watch me.
on another issue: we both know it's better if we just let it go. that's all i have to say about that.
not.
wahaha. i went to the gym today after a 2 week 'hiatus'. i didn't blow off today's session cos i had an appointment with one of the trainers. a so called 'follow up' session to see my progress. ie. they want me to part with my moolah after that and give it to them so they can make me do stuff i already know i should but don't cos i'm too lazy and i lack discipline. the last time they attempted this was august 2005.
good news: i'm maintaining my current weight (note: lighter than in aug 2005. last time i weighed myself was last week) and my body fat percentage has dropped. :) this means that i've lost about 5kg of pure fat. woohoo!
bad news: i'm not doing enough resistance and this means that i might lose muscle cos i'm doing too much cardio. it's complicated. no wonder i don't feel as good now as i did last time even though my weight is the same. my muscles are atrophying!!
i also think this is cos i'm more or less in starvation mode. which is not good. i hate it. but most days i have to choose between the devil and the deep blue sea. i don't wanna eat anything too fatty/ oily/ processed but that's all i got. on the other hand i'm too lazy/ busy to make healthy stuff for myself and it's hard to find such nutritious stuff where i work.
so what's the solution? don't eat lor. it sucks. most of the time i grudgingly swallow something cos i might pass out from being so damn hungry. not good. need to get some sort of control over my diet mans.i also wander around aimlessly or shop during my lunch hour cos i can't decide what to have. hmm. yes, i think my bank account is suffering along with my body.
anyways, it was a good pt (personal training) session, felt muscles that i forgot existed. did crunches for the 1st time in god knows how long. i have a valid excuse for this- didn't wanna disturb my piercing with all the movement. wahaha. after the session was when the real challenge began.
he tried to offer me pt sessions, but of cos cannot take just one lah. like a package. mahal gila ok. relek sua. then finally he called his manager to talk to me. fuck, was really in the shits then. the manager was hawt. huge indian guy with rebonded hair, glasses, great bod and good english. cair. haha. no lah, maintain, of cos. he tried his best, offered me something that i found really really hard to resist, but my head just kept screaming nooooooooooooo!
cos it would imply that i can't do it on my own. i've already lost 10 on my own dammit, i can manage the 10 more. hmph. the trainer and the manager even went so far as to compliment my 'beautiful eyes' and 'great smile'. pfft. tell me something i don't know dudes! wahaha. think manager dude sat with me for almost an hour but i managed to hold my ground. haha. your intimidation techniques don't work on me man. pick on someone your own size!
he also loosened up after a while, cos he realised i wasn't about to get pressured into signing up on the spot. told me about this thing called the 'onion butt'. i was like, wtf mate? then he explained, it's the kind of butt, when the person walks into the room and you see it, you wanna cry cos it just looks soo damn good. waahahahahahahhaha. kelakar gila.
this onion butt reminded me of a certain tag that said 'butts can be built with squats but boobs are a gift from god.' adigal should know what i'm talking about. haha. time to build! if eva longoria can add 2 inches to her butt then so can i! then again she has a trainer... oh. wait... doh.
i'm glad i went though. cos it has given me my mojo back. very motivated to go the last mile(s) now. just watch me.
on another issue: we both know it's better if we just let it go. that's all i have to say about that.
Monday, May 08, 2006
someone bitch slap me please
since WHEN did i become so fucking emotional?
fuck it. get a grip, woman!!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
so close yet so far
my hotly contested grc put up a rather good show. 43.92% to the opposition. ooh, so so close. almost half of the residents voted for the opposition. should the ruling party be worried? i reckon, yes, they should.
perhaps we'll see some major improvements in the area as a result of them trying to win us over. what if something like in v for vendetta happened here? that would be awesome.
i hope they put up a good fight next time round. who knows, they might win.
in other news, been feeling damned lethargic lately. think it's the diet. haven't been taking in any good, nutritious foods. bleurgh. perhaps i should do some detoxing. hmm. green tea here i come. i'm sick of the food selection at tampines too. sighs. i need more variety man. or mebbe i just need to stop being lazy and start to bring bekal. haha. but then if i bring bekal how the heck am i supposed to spend the rest of my lunch break? it's not like there are any nice places to sit at in tamp central... without spending, of course. sighs. lousy office doesn't have a lounge area either. bummer.
my theory is that i'm having a bout of sick office syndrome (sos). i don't think it's a coincidence that i've been to the doc 3 times since i started work. i didn't use to get sick so often. once a year, max. it's only been about 9 months. sucks. lucky can claim. otherwise ah, broke man. i love popping pills but i don't like strong medication. think it just fucks things up even more in the long run, u know. bah. i soo need a vacation and a good massage.
p.s. not gonna talk about what rohana, shaz and i did on sat. rohana covered it already haha. one thing's for sure, i'm going back to parkway to do some shopping man. hot tip: use the loos from the 2nd floor upwards. the rest are crowded as hell.
perhaps we'll see some major improvements in the area as a result of them trying to win us over. what if something like in v for vendetta happened here? that would be awesome.
i hope they put up a good fight next time round. who knows, they might win.
in other news, been feeling damned lethargic lately. think it's the diet. haven't been taking in any good, nutritious foods. bleurgh. perhaps i should do some detoxing. hmm. green tea here i come. i'm sick of the food selection at tampines too. sighs. i need more variety man. or mebbe i just need to stop being lazy and start to bring bekal. haha. but then if i bring bekal how the heck am i supposed to spend the rest of my lunch break? it's not like there are any nice places to sit at in tamp central... without spending, of course. sighs. lousy office doesn't have a lounge area either. bummer.
my theory is that i'm having a bout of sick office syndrome (sos). i don't think it's a coincidence that i've been to the doc 3 times since i started work. i didn't use to get sick so often. once a year, max. it's only been about 9 months. sucks. lucky can claim. otherwise ah, broke man. i love popping pills but i don't like strong medication. think it just fucks things up even more in the long run, u know. bah. i soo need a vacation and a good massage.
p.s. not gonna talk about what rohana, shaz and i did on sat. rohana covered it already haha. one thing's for sure, i'm going back to parkway to do some shopping man. hot tip: use the loos from the 2nd floor upwards. the rest are crowded as hell.
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