the raya post

ok people, here goes:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO EVERYONE

& MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

(FOR ANY WRONGDOINGS, REAL, IMAGINED, OR OTHERWISE)

to everyone who hasn't seen/paid attention to (how dare u. haha) my msn nick, please do let me know if u can make it to my

raya open house, 5 nov, sun, after zuhur till late.

i need to know how many people to cater for!! so let me know asap ok.

email, tag, chat, sms, whatever. will be smsing people to let them know too but feel free to bring whoever u want, other halves, bestfrens, hot single male friends, u know, the usual. wahaha. ok then stay safe... whoever is still collecting and not giving yet... take full advantage!!! wahaha.

new goal

i wanna earn enough to be able to get a couple of items from gucci each time they have a new collection. is that too much to ask?

www.gucci.com

drool at leisure. can only view classics and the fall/winter 2006 collection tho. bummer. i want the shoes! and the furry bags! ahaha. sighs. i can dream ok.

yes yes i've been struck by a bolt of boredom at work. couple this with no supervisors cos they all went for lunch. also, i was being kepo and wanted to find out how to tell a real from a fake bag lah. haha. that's why i stumbled into the above site. i wish i hadn't. click on it and see why... i dare you. *evil laughter*

birthday greetings

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

& BEST WISHES

TO KAVI, SANGEE & BAREK. =)

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may you guys have a fantastic year ahead!!

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HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY

TO HAJAR TOO!

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sorry forgot to make blog dedication. wahaha.

ramadan kareem

alamak, forgot to put up a fasting post lah. a bit belated but here it is:

selamat berpuasa to all, have a great ramadan!

as usual, i'm pretty excited abt this. even managed to change my working hours and head home at a very early 4.30pm. :) why? cos i can... haha.

anyway, time to do some promotional stuff. want cookies? go to www.thecookieworkshop.com and say naz sent ya!! haha. shon this is for u. :)

want more cookies? call me! my aunt makes em tooooooo! i'll send u a list but i would highly recommend her kuih tart and nutella roll... u guys have tried my nutella roll right? hers is BETTER!! so far i got more than a dozen orders for that from my colleagues alone... and they haven't even tried it yet. based solely on my recommendation and over the top description. wahaha. mmmmm yummy...

also, hari raya open house 2006!! details akan datang but probably on a sun. gonna be the last raya before they enbloc my estate so u know u wanna come!

tales from the crib

so right, remember how i was saying that i'd been painting my bro's nursery? i'm finally done! had no idea that it would take so damn long! granted it's my first time painting a whole wall but jeez... a lot of work sia. was supposed to do the whole room but no time lah. would love to, but baby is due at the end of oct/ early nov and gonna be busy these next few weeks cos of puasa and raya so... no go. i don't like the idea of painting the nursery after the baby comes cos of the fumes, having to move the furniture, health reasons, etc... ok lah less talk more pics. haha.

exhibit A: flowers. there was a pink/ purple theme, therefore the lack of any other colours. couldn't get a shot of the trail at the bottom or a full wall shot. oh well. imagine it.
exhibit B: butterflies. from exhibit A, u can tell where the 1st butterfly starts. i tell u ah, damn tedious ok! but it's a labour of love so i don't mind. have to be really precise and steady with the colouring and outline otherwise will look too messy. used my own normal paintbrushes for the outline cos they're finer and would give a better result. tis true, your tools do matter.

exhibit C: my constant companion during the entire painting process. meet fila the persian. so lepak rite? haha. damn nice lah the fur... takes fila a while to warm up to people but he (she?) did eventually and this is what happens.

i'm not too happy with the end result of the painting though. after i started outlining the flowers in black, i realised that i should've probably done the outlining in a darker shade of the flower colour ala the leaves. doh!! but it was too late to turn back and start again. :( nevermind, it's only the first time. can experiment again in the future...

trois: cerulean seas

ok we went on a day trip to phi phi island on the 3rd day. took a harrowing 1 hr speedboat ride to our destination. 1st time in a speedboat going that fast mah. the rides after that were less stressful. can tertido sommore. haha. awesome experience.

pretty eh?
cave where bird's nest is harvested. i can't get over how gorgeous the water looks. crystal clear ok!

fishies!!and a parting sunset shot on patong beach.

deux: crimson sunsets

this is the street along patong beach. rohana had her hair braided so i busied myself with trying to take happening/ urban- looking shots.one of the items on my to-do list got crossed out: ride in a tuk tuk. check!!



and of course the all important sunset shots. so pretty right? mebbe we should've gone over to karon or kata beach for a better view but wat the heck... there's always next time. this by itself was pretty spectacular already.

oh ya, afternoon was spent in a spa... it was pretty good. i still prefer javanese style tho.

une: azure skies

ok so here's a breakdown of the getaway rohana and i had to phuket. er in pic format cos i'm lazy with posts now, as u can probably guess... for details please go to rohana's blog. wahaha.

our home for 4 days and 3 nights. my fave part abt the room was... channel v. wahaha. had an overdose of justin and scissor sisters... i like. i also loved the loo. got the spray2 thingy. in fact, all the loos i went to in phuket had them. they're clean and odour free too!

first look at patong beach. not bad... had beach brollys and chairs along the entire stretch... 100baht for a pair. attentive beach bum aka Aka optional and foc. wahahaha.went parasailing! it was pretty cool, but too short lah. my theory of wearing a ring so u won't get disturbed was proven true. the parasailing dude was like, so r u married. i'm bad at lying, so i said no. then he asked, got boyfren? i just flashed the ring, and he got the picture. wahaha. see, i didn't lie mah. of cos rohana wasn't as deft at taichi-ing such questions, therefore our relek session by the beach was cut short. haha.

this is the bus which we escaped on. 20 baht for a ride to the city. quite fun. rohana has a souvenir from it, ask her.

having lunch at the shopping centre... the breadstix u see above were awesome... so was the seafood pizza. yum yum. was meat deprived for 4 days ok!! everywhere also pork and non halal... so stuck to seafood. i would go back there just to try the cinema seats. super cheap and the 'sofa sweet' looked damn good. wahaha. bought 2 pairs of shoes for 400 baht. that's about sgd17 for both. hehehe. ya ya shopaholic i know.

comexed. 31 aug, 01 sept 06

comex is a tech geek's dream come true. then again, it's a non- tech geek's dream come true too. i went twice. almost made it a 3rd time but my laziness won out. now i'm going to haunt the aisles of sim lim for speakers and dvd media... hmm.

so right, i got me my first desktop pc last friday. cost me $1034 (after a 3.5% credit card charge. was actually $999. bah. should've brought my other bank card sia) and i must say, it's a beauty. i have just discovered the joys of a 17 inch lcd... of cos this is nothing compared to rohana's 19 inch but hey, i loooike. so big ahhhhh s.g. beng also can see one!! wahaha. i still haven't decided on a name for him but somehow 'taylor' comes to mind. this name is unisex rite? i dunno...

also got a panasonic lumix, will extras thrown in. mebbe i will take a pic of taylor with it. it too, does not have a name as yet. haha. dunno if i should tho, cos it's a 'family' camera. ie. anyone can use it. of cos it's safe in my room rite now so... IT'S MINE!!! until my uncle returns my other lumix anyway. still deciding on which one to bring to phuket. hmm. shall do some testing and see which takes better pics. yeah yeah i know the newer one is, er, newer, but oldies r goodies mah. and i don't have to worry so much about losing the old one. not cos my mother will kill me if i lose the new one but cos the old one is so damn huge. wahaha.

speaking of which... phuket!! 2 wks away!! wooohooooo!! rohana bila mau book hotel ar?? i hope the weather will be good... seriously. weather here so unpredictable lately man. rain one day panas terik the next... sheesh. whatever it is, planning on spending a good part of the time getting pampered at a spa and another part exploring islands.

OMG i'm so fucking sleepy now it's not funny. even writing a post at work is not helping. noooooo. best part is. i think i slept well last night. got a new pillow from the JL sale at expo. it's niiiiiiice. one of the best sleeps i've had in a long time. gawd i need a break. 9 working days to phuket... 9 working days to phuket.. 9 working days to phuket... 9 working days to phuket... *snore*

womaded. 25 aug 06

went to womad a couple of nights back... it was great! was hot, sweaty, face was oily, too many orang asing around but... it was great. fantastic night for ogling at hot guys too. haha. mooch and i went earlier than the rest of the people we were supposed to meet so we caught more acts.

chico was gd, t bone was very good, but radio mundial did it for me. awesome lah. check them out here. got some pics from the night but as usual, with camera phone, so they're dark, blurry and not very good. haha. the top stage had better acts than the main stage (with the exception of radio mundial who played the main stage. did i mention they were cute?) and we got lots of exercise in from going up and down stairs at fort canning.
radio mundial on stage and mooch & faisal posing on ground. can u spot them? yup, the shadowy forms. wahaha.

another shot of the main stage from afar. some woman named baca was singing. i think. can't remember which act it was.

mooches got me cool earrings! thanks mooch! we also tried a marshmellow brownie with ice cream from the brownie factory who had a stall there. fantastic lah. sticky, gooey, comfortingly cool sweetness on a hot night. go try at taka basement.

what else happened ah... oh ya we got pics taken by this photog dude so we're gonna be on nightlife.sg sometime soon i guess. no no not gonna be famous. checked it out and u have to sign up to retrieve yr pics. i don't mind lah but at the moment i'm too malas.

faisal, manoj and the rest stayed on at the subaru groove tunnel but mooch and i called it a night at 1++ am. radio mundial was still on stage packing up when we walked by to get to the exit. place was already kinda deserted and there was no sign of the swaying crowd that was there only minutes ago. this would've been a great op to get up close and take pics with the hotties but noooooo. naz had her usual case of starstruckness and didn't wanna go say hi. sheesh. so annoying. this is my biggest regret of the night. oh, and not dancing. i ain't got the groove baby. best not to try and end up embarrassing myself in the process. haha.

would've stayed longer, mebbe all night but alas work beckoned. had to help my aunt out at her stall on sat. flipping burgers over a hot grill on 2 hrs of sleep. fun and games man. i miss working there... it's damn shiok lah. tiring, but at least u're doing something useful, measurable and u get to meet people. hmph.

ok then off to paint the nursery... will put up pics once it's done and not while it's still a work in progress. hopefully can finish the main wall today. bubbai.

kayaked. 20 aug 06

ok late update, i know. haha. went kayaking last sun and it was AWESOME!! i wanna go again! this time round i want to use the sit on top kayak... which is available at bedok res. how convenient. wahaha. any takers?? please be a swimmer, cos i'm not.

i feel i should publicly apologise to faisal for abandoning him in favour of mooches. i have several good reasons!
1. brought mooch along in cas i was incapable of kayaking due to that time of the month.
2. turns out that the partner of one of the participants didn't come so she needed a partner.
3. faisal partnered her instead.
4. which is a good thing cos if i had sprung a leak (u know wat kind) in the same kayak as him, that would've been mighty embarrassing for both parties.

see... my actions were justified. haha. all of us had a good time anyway, so it's ok.

weather during the day was perfect for kayaking according to daniel. cloudy, slight drizzle, with a bit of sunshine. didn't get much of a tan but it's ok, nothing a phuket trip can't take care of. haha.

us rafting up for a photo op before heading out. our instructors for the day were daniel and kang wei. i think kang wei rather liked mooch and i cos he kept splashing us and tried to capsize us. wahaha. joke's on him tho, cos he ended up capsizing on one of his attempts.
rafting up again in front of god knows where in the kallang basin. i say mooch and i make a great team, cos we were leading the pack the entire time. wahaha. had lots of fun singing tunes in terrible voices. there were also plenty of dragon boaters around. we were shouting aussie3 oi3 to the aust teams but they ignored us! how rude... either that or tak dengar ah. haha.

coming from someone with a slight case of hydrophobia, all in all it was a great experience. damn shiok lah.

b'day dinner

i'm feeling rajin, so here are pics from the b'day dinner i had... the fitness ball my bro got me is the wrong size lah... gonna have to return and get the bigger one. mebbe even the biggest. haha.

youngest sis and i. yes, i am smaller than her. hard to do but shedonnit.
food glorious food...
family pic (minus lil bro, he was taking the pic) taken with phone camera. haha. out of batts for the digi cam and malas wanna bring, so bulky. i need me a small slim camera. time to downsize...

the birthday post (mortem)

sooo... it's my birthday today. funny how i'm always tempted to sing that 50 cent song each time anyone mentions a birthday. *it's your birthday, we're gonna party like it's your birthday*... speaking of songs which i can't get out of my head, my latest obsession is justin's sexy back. since i don't have the mp3 i just play the vid on youtube over and over again. haha. nah don't really watch the vid, just listen to the song. the bridge has me hooked. * dirty babe you see these shackles baby i'm your slave, i'll let u whip me if i misbehave, it's just that no one makes me feel this way* how can u not fall in love with something like that? haha.

anyways, i think i promised a list of sorts. i would refer back to my birthday post from last year in my friendster blog but alas it's being a bitch. you know u're getting old when u can count your age in... i dunno, groups? for this year it's 2 dozen. next year it's quarter of a century. when u're 30 it's 3 decades. hmm...

ok looking back on what i wanted last year (yay can access old blog now), these are the things which still elude me:

1) a blender. yeah i still want one.
x) handphone bling (don't really care about this anymore. love my phone!)
x) adidas shoes (ok probably out of stock or discontinued or something by now so i shall move on)
2) an iPod *sigh* are we not meant to be?
3) nine west shoes. hmm, think shall forget abt this too, cos they never have my size. shall stick with novo. mmmmmmm novo...
4) 3 letter word. haha. que sera sera.

let's add on to the list shall we?

5) fitness ball (bro getting for me. apparently)
6) ruby ring (mum is on the hunt for this as i type. she actually offered necklace or bracelet but since when do i wear such things? so i asked for the item below, but changed my mind and asked for the ring. mum asked wat my ring size was, i'm like, er, large? wahaha.)
7) bicycle. to explore the great outdoors. and possibly start cycling to work. ha. ha. ok ok shall not be so ambitious, cycle to the mrt station then.
8) crocs ballet slippers. yes, crocs has gone slightly pretty. so i shall endorse them and not slam them like i usually do. have yet to see these, er, in person, so until then, i want these only half as much as the rest of the stuff here. why do i want these? cos i don't wanna ruin my heels rushing to work in the morn. er heels of the shoe variety, not foot.
9) pda. both kinds? ha. ha. ha. was thinking hp ipaq...
10) contact lenses. like seriously. this should actually be on the necessary items list but i just can't be bothered to go get em. mebbe i will soon lah, current contacts are way way way past their use by date. poor eyes.

was actually gonna write down non- materialistic stuff like courage, patience, discipline, etc etc... but screw that! wahaha. mebbe next post.

so to everyone who wished me today (without being prompted, i'm impressed) so far, THANK YOU!!

touching touching. decided not to blatantly advertise on msn this year, so i just used a vague personal msg. haha. such is the behaviour of a twenty something who's showing signs of turning into an eccentric, rich, reclusive, 70 yr old virgin with 35 cats. yes yes i'm being negative and self- pitying. bite me. *it's my party and i'll cry if i want to* haha. hey at least i said i'll be rich and eccentric. those are good things right? right.

to put it succinctly

" no matter how cute you are considered back home, be prepared to feel like a troll here."

- tips on turkey, some magazine i came across

this is why turkey is on my eye candy tour list of places to visit. others are spain, portugal, italy and egypt. haha. tall, dark and handsome... mmmmmmm. it's an ogle orgy, people.

hmm 4 days to my birthday and i don't feel excited at all. maybe cos i'll be one year closer to quarter of a century this time round. noooooo. haven't even come up with a past, present (both kinds) and future list. i guess i will work on that soon enough.

in the meantime, i will be painting my future niece's nursery. let's hope that it won't turn out to be a boy cos i don't think he will be pleased with the flowers and butterflies in his lilac room. hopefully i won't be too lazy to take pics of my handiwork. hopefully.

will also be painting my own room in the near future, got the paint already and then it struck me that hey, wait a min, kinda looks like the shade in my room now! so i pried the lid off in a panic, took a sample and smeared it on my wall. thank god, wasn't colour blinded after all cos they're different. haha. would have gone with a deep rich burgundy colour but i thought it'd be too dark. so light reddish brown it is. ok ok so i'll be moving out next year but i don't care, realised that i hadn't painted the walls since we moved in. that's close to 8 years. it's about time! better late than never? haha.

ok off to draw up butterflies and such.

long time no see. kinda.

wow feels like it's been a while since i updated. what's been happening... hmm for latest news please refer to rohana's blog. wahaha. was just looking at my schedule and man, it's quite active for once. was just looking at my room and man, i seriously need to do some major spring cleaning. like, seriously. i got books on the floor, shopping bags, magazines, docs, everything everywhere. my wardrobe is also a huge huge mess. i hate it when i can't find my clothes. doesn't help that most are black and folded so they all look alike. haha. some of them are missing in action, i'm positive. question is, are the pieces lost under all my other stuff or have they been kidnapped and held against their will, alone and helpless in someone else's cupboard? come back my pretties, come baaaaack!

hmm what else... i feel like i finally understand what my purpose at work is. basically it's the same as my other attachment but it's disguised as something much more important and leceh. the message is: bring in the sales!! or we're gonna nail yo ass! sighs. i hate being profit driven. but salaries need to be paid, targets need to be met and the lights need to be switched on. so right, one of the newest tasks i'm handling is... research. market competition analysis. i don't really mind this actually, cos it means i have to read the news and just extract all the relevant info. do some surfing, make a few phone calls, put it all together in a nice, easy to read table cos the head loves tables. i hate excel. also get to mess around with the organisation's website and see how i can make our dept more noticeable.

there are worse things in life that i could do i guess.

i really wanna be good at this. now that i actually know my target, it's just a matter of reaching it. we're halfway there already apparently. no worries then... i love planning things out but i really really hate nitty gritty details. guess who has to take care of the details? also feel that i've been messing up at work a lot. it's nothing big, but it's a lot of little things. every single one of them seem to be stacked up against me by the seniors, u know. maybe it's just me thinking that but they don't really mind. nah. they definitely do mind. the ngiao type, u know. god i hate working with women. my senior exec is pretty ok though, she's nice. for now anyway. i better pick up the slack before everything comes crashing down on me. haha.

speaking of which, my dad got retrenched last week. he seems pretty happy about it, kinda like early retirement. i dunno... i am worried but everyone else doesn't seem to be. why?? i really don't get it. dad did get a pretty huge lump sum from the co. but it ain't gonna last forever man. oh well. we'll see what happens... but as of last week, i'm the so called 'sole breadwinner' in the household. cheers.

the start of something long & painful

wah shit. my thighs hurt, my butt hurts, my abs hurt... i feel like an old woman. can't even sit down without wincing sia!!

why am i aching all over the lower torso? no shaz, there's nothing dirty about this, sorry to disappoint you. haha. i went for a 6km jog at east coast, then another 6km walk back to the car. wahlau ehhhhh. this was totally not in the plan on sun. my neighbour, his colleague and i were supposed to do interval training at bedok stadium. unfortunately there was something going on there so i opened my big mouth and suggested east coast. doh.

we literally went as far as we felt like going. which meant that we stopped when we saw the familiar golden arches of macdonalds... then we had komala's for dinner. sat outside, and there was this bar with live music just beside komala's so we had good music while having dinner and watching the dusk settle on the very crowded east coast beachfront. shiok ah. that's how life should be, sun, sand, sea and sweat. haha. also saw people building sandcastles. niiiiiiiiiice. i wanna build sandcastles tooooo!

i think this is gonna turn into a weekly thing, insyaallah. morning would be less crowded ah, but who would get up that early on a weekend man? whoever wants to come along for a leisurely jog along the beach is welcome!! or skate or cycle or whatever. haha. hmm skate... this is the start of my 'disgustingly fit' program. hopefully.

ok i'm done rambling. 2 days to payday. woohooooo! i think i have a serious shopping addiction. sighs... better shopping than eating i reckon.

it's the thought that counts!

ok i know this is a bit the belated but i say better late than never. so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROHANA!!!

wahaha. wanted to do this yest but then my pc was being a bitch and i didn't feel like dealing with it.

i can't wait to go watch the rummage!! and we sooo have to get dessert at menotti's. mmmm... menotti's...

warning: disgusting post ahead

omg guys, i just HAD to blog about this. errrr those who don't wanna hear about asses, discharge and the like, please stop reading NOW.

yesterday and today, i was a bit scared for my life. this is due to me excreting some foul smelling orange (yes, ORANGE) oily stuff from my ass. see, i told you it's disgusting wat. best part, it only happened last night. thank god i make it a habit of wearing pantyliners all the time even when wearing thongs. phew. never hurts to be safe man. i was quite alarmed when it happened cos i was like, whoa whoa whoa, i haven't taken any kind of supplements at all for the past few days! so can't be a side effect from anything. only been eating loads of good food. started thinking, omg, this is payback time for not exercising for so long and slacking off and not taking care of my diet. OH MAN. thought i was really in the shits. literally. was already picturing going to the doc, and getting grave life threatening results back.

thought to myself, ok chill, relax, let's see if it continues for a few days. if it does then confirm must go doc lah. so guess what, it was still happening today!! i thought, muther. fucker. started to panic and think of all sorts of things that could be wrong. did my digestive track just give up? did my liver or kidneys throw in the towel? is my rectum on strike?? so i decided to do what everyone does when faced with a potentially embarrassing, iffy health crisis. i googled the symptoms. then i found this.
eureka!! thank god for the power of the internet and fellow paranoid users!!

the culprit my friends.... is butterfish!! all the while i was blaming it on the braised chicken handmade noodles i had for lunch yesterday cos it was the only thing out of the ordinary that i had. apparently i had to go back to the day before, when i had dinner at the manhattan fish market. it's the butterfish!! excellent, divine butterfish in black pepper sauce with garlic rice it was too. although i did have one HELL of a stomachache right after. took the bus home and i didn't reach home a second too soon. not a second too soon, mates. i think my friend thought i was gonna pass out in the bus from the cramping. hahaha. those who are familiar with my cold sweat moments will know what i'm talking about.

phew. mystery solved. so guys, all i have to do now is wait for the rest of the indigestible oil to get passed out and we're good! hmm looks like i'm getting a free intestine cleansing and butt moisturizing. hahaha.

power to the gods of google!!!!

another one off the market

ok i know this is a bit overdue but here it is now:

CONGRATULATIONS HUDA & REZA ON YOUR MARRIAGE!!!

haha don't think they read my blog but it's the thought that counts! happy couples make me happy... spread the good cheer ya!

pics wise... hmm... wait long long? haha. stupid pc can't connect to net lah, so i've been on my ibook the past week or so. kinda annoys me when i have to do stuff like pic editting and cropping cos a) i don't have a mouse b) jordan is kinda sloooooow cos his RAM is not that high and the software installed is the latest so it takes a lot to run it and c) i tend to be lazier as i'm on the bed and not sitting up. haha.

been thinking of reformatting the pc... but i dunno how! it's too complicated! haha. then hv to transfer all the files... leceh. relek sua. may not solve the prob sommore. so my next plan is to wait a couple of months for comex 2006, then go get me my 1st desktop pc. noooooooooooo! oh well. guess u can't go wrong with having both apple and windows at home. i bet can get some super good deals there too... hmm. bersabar lah. 31 aug to 3 sept if im not wrong. the next dilemma, beat the crowd by going on the earlier days or get better deals by going on the later days? are these assumptions of mine even valid? who has comex experience?? please advise!!

ok lah back to work... yawns.

fluffy white clouds

for the record, can i just reiterate once again- i. am. a. sucker. for. sweet. talk.

thank you.

please ignore the redundancy of certain words. no matter how power i think my english is, i am still a fool.

i am going to try to improve on my use of the language in my future posts. i will also try to not talk about mundane things that may bore whoever is reading it. if i get bored reading my own blog, come on, something is wrong there ain't it.

pfffft nah, just kidding guys. no reprieve for u...

disclaimer: oh no i just realised i more or less plagiarised off rohana's blog! sorry! same topics!!

falling asleep as i type this...

sighs. no mood to work ah. so i shall blog! need to respond to negative feedback mah. hahaha.

so... the reason i haven't been blogging is cos i've been busy writing emails to people on the other side of the world who are 7 whole hours behind... works like this: chat when i get back from work, the person writes an email when i'm already in dreamland, i get the email in the morn when i reach work, and then i reply. when i leave work, person just starts work and replies to the email. by the time i reach home i have an email waiting for me and the person is online for a chat. complicated? ok let's keep it that way.

my stupid pc at home is down. dunno why also. bro can't fix it. the lan is connected according to the pc but the net can't be accessed. so dumb right? no idea what's wrong. could be the router but then i don't wanna mess with that, just in case it fucks up the whole thing and i can't surf at all. the net still works on my beloved jordan and the pc in the other room. i'm tempted to get a new pc. either that or a mac. then again my beloved jordan still works like a dream tho he's a bit slow in his old age. i don't need a replacement yet. hmm. succumbing to gates? nooooo. i want a killer lcd display tho. hehe. cd burner is a must, and a fast processor. naz waits for no comp. wahaha. unless it's my beloved jordan. oh jordan, how i am besotted with thee.

anyways. forgot to write about the dnd hahaha. this just shows that it wasn't that great. actually, that's not true. was pretty cool. and i spent a grand total of $3.90 for a headband! woohoo! the rest of the outfit i had already. just mix and match. my colleagues were performing so they had cool costumes on. damn, wish i had dressed up too. nevermind there's always next year! they won 2nd place i think... oh ya i won a steam iron in the lucky draw. wahaha. better than nothing i reckon... got $100 voucher for glasses sommore. god knows how much i need glasses. went to the shop on sun but it just did not look appealing. will try again another day. or go to another branch or something.

on sat night i had dinner with a friend, her man and her friends. had a lovely time. i absolutely adored watching the couple. sighs. made me believe in love all over again. haha. i hope they end up married soon. damn damn damn sweet ok. my favourite part was during dessert. they were sitting across each other then she was talking, and he just gently cupped her face in his hands and smiled into her eyes. waaaaaaah so romantic laaaaaaah. can die ok. i'm more than determined to find me a man now. or whenever. super sweet. was smiling to myself and couldn't sleep. or maybe my insomnia could've been attributed to the awesome dessert at menotti's. awesome. i can't remember what it's called though. was a choc cake oozing with warm choc fudge/ sauce and ice- cream on the side. mmmmm....

actually i think i overindulged in dessert this week. had ben and jerry's fossil fuel (pure decadence) on wed and nydc on sun. hmm. someone has to start exercising again, it seems...

yummy mummies

so today i got completely lost in toa payoh. or wherever the hell i was when looking for a building in toa payoh. took the train, got to the right station, and then i took the wrong bus. stupid street directory. yeah yeah i guess i should've asked at the interchange if it was the right bus but no, i didn't. so instead of being surprisingly on time (cos i thought i left the house late), i was extremely late. about half an hour. ok to some people that may be passable but to someone who prides herself on always being punctual, that is very shoddy work.

think the trainer wasn't too impressed, naturally. i wouldn't have been either. but i think she held it against me all day. whatever lah, move on. sheesh. the training is boring btw... the only thing that made my day was when i spotted a familiar face i hadn't seen in... oh, half a year or so.

ok time for some background. i first met this colleague of mine who i hadn't seen in a while at another training course way back in december. she's the young, hot, slim, funky type, u know. with really great hair. gawd i loved her hair. was super long and thick and spirally funky curls.

anyway. just now when i saw her, she was pregnant! and not just pregnant, heavily pregnant! like, gonna give birth next month, literally. i was like, wtf??? i didn't even know she was married! wahlau eh... naturally i was asking her all sorts of questions during the break. haha. can't help it, i get excited when i see people who are pregnant. especially if they're friends. or people i know. even more so if they're young and recently married. leaves me in awe man.

also found out that another girl i used to work with just got married this month too. nah, didn't get married on 060606. haha. this newlywed happens to live in tampines, so she got her husband to drop me off there. so sweet ah. thanks to her i came home early and i managed to go for a much needed think-deep-thoughts walk at the reservoir. did do some deep thinking, but no conclusion. as usual. sighs. reflect too much ready. hmm eh no, i did manage to draw some conclusions. or rather, i stopped pulling the wool over my eyes. doh. now for solutions. sighs...

back to the yummy mummy. she's my age, her husband is 27, and they're having a girl. she prefers boys. haha. couldn't agree more. so exciting lah. eta 21 july. i dunno whether it creeps them out, but i tend to just stare at pregnant women. even more so if they're the funky dressers. haha. mebbe cos i can't imagine myself in their shoes. at all. what they are doing seems like light years away for me. but mostly cos... i dunno. it means that they're settled i guess, and responsible enough to take care of another human being. starting a fresh new chapter, u know. having another purpose in life that is completely unselfish. isn't it great that they're gonna have a baby? seriously? freaking cool laaaaaaah. am i jealous? hell yeah. but like i said, can't imagine. i am soo not ready for that kinda thing. gonna enjoy watching other people do it for a while. sighs. so exciting.

a sad state of affairs

it's a saturday. i'm home alone (well save for the sis i never speak to) cos my parents and the siblings i do speak to went off to trengganu this morn. not only am i bored, i'm hungry! there's no food in the house! well, nothing that i can easily turn into something satisfying. need to go buy bread... and milk... and juice. man... this means i have to get out of the house. wasn't planning on doing that except to go help huda wrap her berkat, but this got cancelled. i really have no reason to step out now.

hmm perhaps i could pay the gym a visit. do i really wanna do that though? just haven't been in the mood for the gym this past month. a whole month! i have never not gone to the gym this long before. whatever it was i always managed at least one session. this is bad. slowly sinking back into my bad habits... argh. help me, help me please. my favourite quote of late is: "motivation is what gets you started. habit is what keeps you going." brilliant. where is my motivation?

so, here i am, online at 12pm on a saturday with no plans. great. think i'll go read a book or clean my constantly messy room.

p.s. made my mind up for now- will be going for the masters in counselling. i figure this will benefit me a lot. you know, teach me to be more concerned about others, sharpen my listening skills, etc, etc. the design stuff i'll do on the side, cos from what i've seen, design courses want you to be super creative and really out there. out there apparel ain't gonna bring in the dough lor. well, not for a small family business anyway. still trying to convince my parents to change the shop name. bah.

sarawak part deux

hmm on the last night of the sarawak trip i was too damned tired to write some travel notes, even though the notebook and pen were right there beside me. haha. ran out of clothes by then too cos i wore my baju tidur to the wet market that morning and got the pant hems all wet and stinking like fish. market was abt 40 min away from the kampung we were staying at. bought ikan terubok and some kuih there. the fruits looked awesome. everything was so fresh and alive. really cool. only 4 of us adults plus 2 people from the kampung. the guy drove like a madman. haha.

when we came back, we went straight to the school to look see look see, then to a wedding. quite different from sg weddings, was between 9 to 12. when our bus drove by at 12.30, everything was cleared already sia! haha. kampung people are very hospitable and very nice. kampung was right by the river, with an awesome view of gunung san tubung.

what else did we do that day... oh ya, went to a museum, then pottery factory, then shopping... that's it i think. one of the students had a high fever so that was a bit of a drama, had to take her to the clinic and all.

ok think that's it. malasnye wanna update sommore. not tt anyone cares. haha. pics soon i guess.

sarawak part une

okies, travel notes about my sarawak trip. overdue, i know, but that's just me. slacker. haha. i still haven't finished unpacking my carry on bag...

while i was at work...

080606 8.50am thurs

thank god thank god thank god this is my last day of work for this week. no wonder office workers look forward to the weekend so much. now i understand. saya tak suka laaaah. extremely tempted to break my bond. i dunno what it is but i seem to have lost my sense of responsibility and commitment. i couldn't care less who gets affected if i do run off. it's not like i'm planning on bumming around, you know. of cos i'm gonna look for another job. question is, when should i start?

just found out from s. that he will bercuti panjang the whole of july. macam siak, skarang baru bilang! this means that whatever dia sedang buat skarang, aku lah yang kena buat. hmm. i don't mind ah actually. yay yay takde s., i can do my own work. i hate being supervised lah. seriously.

another thing, i think i need to do some soul searching. seem to have lost my sense of direction (no, not the literal one. that one i never had in the 1st place so how to lose? haha). hmm... time to do some meditation and quiet thinking.

9.09am

hmm s. belum sampai. kalau nari dia tak datang, relek jugak. haha. since skarang dia takde, boleh lah action sikit.

i have been playing with the idea of shaving my head for charity. i waaaant. a few people have told me that it wouldn't be professional to come to work with a shaved head. if you think about it, it's only bald for what, a week or so? after that grow back ready... therefore, i CAN do this. worse come to worse wear a scarf or tudung to work lor. or hats. i have hats! haha.

yesterday on the way home in the train, i saw this girl with lots of moles. when i say moles, i mean the huge ones with hair growing out of them. yes, eew. she had them everywhere. could tell that there had been attempts to remove some. by what means, i don't know. was extremely facsinated, and it made me feel really grateful that my moles are small and cute. haha. really ah, kesian.

i *love* my job

ok bes, supervisor (s.) just went for a meeting so free sikit nak buat kerja. haha. i am so damn good at this act busy thing. anyways, i think i'm not cut out for working a 9 to 5 ah. or in my case, 8.30am - 5.20pm. i still feel lost in this department... mebbe cos i have no clue what this loans business is all about, and i'm expected to coordinate input and turn them into meaningful reports... like, wtf sia? thinking of asking my s. if i can kepo kepo and get attached to individuals from different sections on a monthly basis as well as do my own work so that i can get a feel of what's going on in general...

i hate not having a clue. at the same time, i don't really wanna ask people who don't seem willing to help and seem too busy even if they do wanna help. mebbe i should just be more thick skinned. will probably talk to the young manager and give her some suggestions on orientation of new staff. wahaha. takde kerja cari kerja. need to talk to her about some internal scheme to convert current staff in other depts to my dept or something. sambil menyelam, minum air!

one big big question that i have been grappling with is- should i stay or should i go? cos it'll obviously cost me if i break my bond kan. if i leave at the end of one year, this july... have to pay back about $3k+. wahlau eh. relek sua. then again, the only thing that's keeping me here is the pay and my own stubborness. never say die!! haha. if i could last 6 mths in a sales position headed by a honkie and a yankee, surely i can stay here for the whole of my 2 year sentence right? right.

hmm ok just got back from lunch. s. is not back yet so yay i have some time to myself... haha. pretty lucky that s. is quite relek and doesn't gimme deadlines. at the same time, there is no sense of urgency either. hmm. dunno what kinda environment i prefer. i think relek. but the work you do has to be significant lah. i'm starting to feel a bit more optimistic about this whole thing for some reason. it's out of my comfort zone but hey i guess that's how you grow. grow into what i dunno ah.

my masters plans... i'm a bit doubtful now if this is the right path for me. god knows (and you guys know) how unempathetic and insensitive i am. haha. one of my friends says that this is a good thing though, cos you can't get too emotional and attached in that kinda job. and i have the necessary analytical skills. true true. should i go back to my first love and sign up with nafa or lasalle instead? hmm... decisions decisions.

060606

hmm just adding something in here cos it's a nice number. i have 30 min left before this special day ends so i wanna get in there in case i don't blog/ don't finish my post in time... got plenty to talk about, don't worry. updates akan datang... not that you care, of cos. wahaha.

happiness

yesterday i watched x- men with rohana and gang. for details please refer to rohana's blog post. wahaha. i absolutely adored the movie!! sat next to muna and we were squealing and getting excited whenever the hunks came on screen. for me it was wolverine and angel, for her it was cyclops and angel. i will not add in a movie spoiler so i will just say that angle and cyclops had pretty minimal roles. wahaha. i looooove the wings!!! i wanna be a mutant too!! jean grey was damn scary as pheonix sia. i will resist the urge to add in another movie spoiler. hmm... then wat the hell is the point of writing a mini movie review?? sighs. whatever it is i loved it ah. i want storm's bod and jean's hair. can? haha.

after the movie, rohana, muna and i went for coffee and cake at mccafe. well rohana didn't have anything lah, the 2 of us did. realised that muna and i have a lot in common much to rohana's exasperation. wahaha. so she just played sudoku while we entertained ourselves. might be going to sibu in a couple of weeks. yay! got something to do on my long weekend(s)!

er, the 1st long weekend i have to study for exams. 2nd long weekend i should also lah but hey, sun sand and sea are beckoning. who am i to refuse the invite? haha. one thing that won't be on the agenda for me for sure is underwater activities. hydrophobic lah. the most i'll do is play on the shore. perhaps i might try above water activities, but only with a lifejacket...

hmm i haven't packed my stuff yet for tomoro. malas ah. have to be in friggin' woodlands at 6 in the friggin' am. jokers. haven't recharged my camera batts or cleared the memory card either so i guess i will go do that... eventually.

work is a 4 letter word

hmm i got 2 words ah. macam. sial. haha.

today is my last day in office before i leave for my sarawak trip. just so happens that they're doing construction and renovation in my office. guess when they're doing my row. that's right. mon. so kan, nari i have to remove all my stuff from my desk, including pc. nak letak mana sey??

abih tu, i was talking to some of my other colleagues. the impression i get is, selamat lah kalau kerja with my current super. sebab dianye style kan, suruh orang lain buat, dia tak buat sendiri. siak. i kinda notice already ah but at the moment i don't mind cos takde banyak kerja. yet. in the next 2 weeks tho, i think i will be pretty busy. especially kalau my super slow gila. banyak barang dia belum buat sey. procrastinate. good luck to him man. why? cos next week i will be in office for 3 days only. the following week, 4 days. 2 of those days i will be leaving office at around 3pm for my exams. wahaha. OT lah nampaknye untuk dia.

oh ya, went for a meeting with marketing yesterday. kinda cool. i like the manager who's in charge of advertising. she is damn organised man. compared to aku punye. wahaha. so right, now i have an insight as to how marketing works. well, minimal insight but better than nothing. think will be working closely with them so yay... macam exciting gitu.

i know i promised myself i was gonna b an examplary employee but... fuck it. i don't really give a damn. bad attitude yes. bite me. oh ya, writing in terrible malay cos takut orang baca dari belakang. as it is i am composing this in damn fine print ok. haha.

makkau, sakit ah my wrists. dah lah masih sejuk gila nak mampus. think i will end up with typical office ailments soon. hmm. ok will stop talking about work now and will write about something happy!

she works hard for the money...

premiere jour

had my first day in my new department just now. i have work to do already! i have job responsibilities! i have my own desk! woohoo! i also have a teleconference tomoro morning. oh man.

i'm scared ah. people have expectations of me now. damn. what if i fall short?? my 'work buddy' is the senior exec. there will be 5 of us (managers, senior execs, execs) under the senior manager. we will be responsible for product development, marketing, etc. i have to start reading the friggin' papers lor. financial section no less. and get this- i have to use a financial calculator!! is there no escape?? been avoiding the stupid thing like crazy and now it's here to haunt me forever. well, for as long as i stay in this department anyway.

think i was the first one in office this morning. or it seemed like it. came in at about 8.15am (8.15AM!!) and the doors were shut, there didn't seem to be anyone around. i was like, hmm... strange. so i went down, had a little chat with the guard, and went upstairs again. the doors were miraculously open. stupid thing is, i thought there was a pin code to open the glass doors. so i was standing there, looking around for a bell or something to press so the 2 persons i saw inside could come open the door. it then dawned on me that they were staring at me and wondering why the hell i wasn't going in since the door wasn't locked in anyway at all. doh.

people start at 9 in this area. i wanna stick to 8.30. haha. though i have a feeling either they will ask me to start at 9 too or i will have to stay till 6 anyway. bummer. i tell you ah, i hate peak hour traffic man. i cannot even begin to imagine how many unwashed bodies i came in contact with during my journey to the office. these people don't bathe in the morning man. and they smell like it!! what's so hard about a quick shower in the morning before you leave? it's not like we have sub- zero temperatures! bloody hell. it did not help that there was a lingering stench of stale cheese in the bus on the journey home. can die ok. disgusting.

now if you will excuse me i have to go through the financial section in the past sunday times and get clippings. of what? i have no idea. i'm hoping i will know it when i see it. this is called acting hardworking. wahaha. i'm still in slacker mode. gotta snap out of it man. soon.

did i mention that it is bloody freezing in the office? it is bloody freezing. was in the meeting room with my buddy and i couldn't take proper notes cos my fingers were almost numb and my nails had turned purple. i kid you not. wahlau. guess who has to take minutes at meetings...? i think i should invest in gloves.

although we've come to the end of the road...

today was my last day of work in my department. i use the term 'work' loosely. the first thing i did in the morn was send an email to the slacker of a HR person, asking him to hurry up and send me a confirmation email about my transfer. the week before, all the bosses involved, the HR person and i already agreed verbally that it was going to happen. is it that hard to write a frigging email to make it official?? jeeeeeez. as you can imagine, i was all hyper and anxious the whole week, waiting for it to drop. why? cos it ain't over till the HR person sends me the goddamn email.

he did. at 11.45am. which is good, cos i told myself that if it wasn't done by noon i would call him up and bug his ass off. the manager at my new department was nice enough to send me a welcome email cos she isn't gonna be around tomoro morn when i show up. so sweet right? haha. i feel welcome already!

so yeah, all i did at work today was go for a 2 hour lunch with a few colleagues, pack up my things, go around talking to people and take some photos. haha. good stuff. then sometime in the afternoon my team leader called my hp and asked me to go upstairs (we have a 1st floor and 2nd floor). see, now usually i'm rotting away at my cubicle on the 2nd floor, but today i got ousted from my seat cos someone needed the space for telemarketing. i went downstairs to use one of the tablets lah, and to kacau the people there. when i went upstairs, surprise surprise, there was like a farewell so called 'tea'. except that there wasn't any tea, but there were loads of otah-otah, epok-epok, nuggets and the like.

my team leader kinda made a short speech, then i had to make one. after which my lady boss made me do something stupid. i had to pick up a nugget with my teeth and dip it in the sauce. now we all know that when your face is that close to sauce and she's pinning your arms down, only one thing can happen. thank god it didn't, cos i had the sense to pin her arms down instead. wahaha. uh and because of my own big mouth, i had to pass the nugget to her. doh. cos when they suggested i had to dip it in sauce, i was like, dip then wat? pass to someone ah? yes i know. stupidity. it was fun though. haha.

oh oh i got a card and presents too! i love cards! the presents were a ceramic box with my birth month stone(peridot) on it and a charm bracelet. i've always wanted a charm bracelet! hehe. so exciting.

after having spent the first 7 months of my working life in that department, i do feel sad about leaving. even though i've been looking forward to it for a long time. i'm just hoping that there will be nice people in the new dept and that i'll be able to handle whatever they throw at me. cos i'm planning on being an examplary executive. first 3 months must be a bit power, then can slack. haha.

just ironed my outfit for tomoro's '1st day at work'. i'm wearing the pants i promised not to wear again cos it's got bits of elastic sticking out. i'm wearing them cos i need to wear black pants (ahem) and i can't fit (yet!) into the other dark coloured pants that i have. wahaha. sighs. bloody slacker. should get my expanding waist to the gym pronto. lucky working nearby now. phew. oh i'm also wearing the shirt i bought for regular price at the robinson's sale. go figure. it's quite gigolo if you ask me. a bit shiny and uh... hmmm. well i like it. so there.

i can't believe i'm reporting at 8.30am tomoro. 8.30AM!! urgh. who the hell goes to work that early. i'm used to waking up at that time dammit. wahaha. ok guess i should go tido and set my alarm and all that. goodnight and good luck.

keep walking

went for the new paper big walk this morning. woke up at the ungodly hour of 0530hrs. i don't even wake up that early for work. or anything else for that matter. thank goodness i'm on night shift tomoro. mmm sleep...

saw a few familiar faces at the event. it was crowded. and hot. i hate the feeling of the sticky, sweaty bodies of total strangers rubbing against my equally sticky and sweaty arms. grossness. my companion for the day was diyana j. haha thanks for letting me pick the makan place.

what can i say about the event... it was ok lah. like the other big walks. i'm gonna make a complaint tho. do u know that there were no water stations until after the midpoint?? ONE water station over a distance of 10km. that is just plain mean. and stupid. who the hell decided that one?? dah lah panas. siak. gggrrr.

ok ah sleepy. zzzzzzz....

been a long time comin'...

the news i'd been waiting for forever finally came just now... i'm getting posted to my new department! hopefully effective monday but my current supervisor thinks it's too short notice and wants me to stay a couple more days. i'm like, nooooooooooooooo! of course, i can't do anything about it lah since i can't tell her how miserable i am in this dept. haha. did i mention i have almost nothing to do? will bug her tomoro about when i'm actually leaving. if i must start on mon, die ah must do everything by tomoro. cos i'm off on fri. hmm...

oh ya, speaking of bugging, it works, people. if i hadn't emailed the HR dude to enquire on the status of my posting i don't think he would've told me. if i hadn't gone to my supervisor after lunch and asked her whether she got his email, she would've forgotten about it. cos when i asked she was like, ya i think i glanced through it just now... like, hello?? it's been a long time coming from my point of view and she just glanced?? sungguh tak adil. but then again i guess she has more important stuff to do than worry about my welfare. haha.

i'm looking forward to what could possibly be my last offday in a while. why? cos i got me a ticket to da vinci code! hehe. watching the morning show. good ah, not crowded, can relax. yes, one ticket. singular. i'm back to my solo movie outing on off day routine. dunno if it can still be called routine if this is the last time i'm doing it though... hmm. might also drop by queensway to look for running shoes... hmm...

anyways, back to work issues. think i might be in a spot of trouble, the kind where they might cut off my access to some of the databases and perhaps issue a warning letter too. they were questioning why i was accessing the info of a vip customer. the truth of the matter is, i was just plain kepo. wanted to see if this person was a customer. this person was. so that's about it. curiousity satisfied. i can't even remember anything i saw. nothing much to see anyway. don't think they will see it from my point of view though. curiosity killed the cat. indeed. mampus aku. no, i didn't tell my supers. i bet they already know. or they will soon. haha.

seriously, do you think i'm in trouble?

jiwang song

hmm was just listening to one of my old cds and came across this song.

just as i am- guy sebastian

i could be a mystery cover up my heart
never show my emotions always keep you in the dark
i could fire a funny line impress you for a while
hide the way that im feeling behind my smile
but i dont wanna lie be something that im not
cant promise you the moon and stars but i
swear to you my love

just as i am
i give myself to you
just as i am
ill never make it through
coz you are the love i need
the life inside of me
so here i stand
just as i am

i can try playin shy or charm you with my words
let you see through the sweet heart which is only there but never works
i could end not pretend and tell you how i feel
coz its a chance we're takin with our love so real
now i dont wanna lie be sumthin that im not
cant promise you the moon and stars but i
swear to you my love

just as i am
i give myself to you
just as i am
ill never make it through
coz you are the love i need
the life inside of me
so here i stand
just as i am

and we'll be together
for always coz true colors never lie
your my everything
my life is in your hands
so take me

just as i am
i give myself to you
just as i am
ill never make it through
coz you are the love i need
the life inside of me
so here i stand
just as i am

it's tv night people. au revoir.

which executive are you?

Nazira, you're an Art Director!

Suit, schmuit. For you, work isn't about power lunches and hostile takeovers. You're all about creativity and inspiration. That's why you'd be an ideal Art Director. We can just picture you at a draft table or computer, cooking up the perfect logo or layout. Passionate and imaginative, you're better than anyone at coming up with ingenious solutions to difficult problems. (And at making them look great!) You've got artistic flare and then some, and you're a pretty darn good leader, too. Nothing's more exciting than brainstorming with a group of talented, creative people and seeing a project take shape, right? No doubt about it, there's a promotion in your future. So keep up the good work!

clearly, i'm in the wrong job.

do this here.

lights are on but no one's home

i'm so bloody bored it's not funny... sighs. i need to find/ rediscover a passion. soon.

so right, the other day i went to see my bro's new place. it's pretty cool, cos it's prison officer quarters. no, it does not look any different from normal flats. in fact, it's a bit condo- ish. minus the pool. great view of the airport. urhm and the prison. look out the living room window and you can see the inmates if they're outside! hmm...

you know how when you enter a house, you either feel really creeped out or really welcome? we felt really welcome. my favourite room in the house is gonna be the baby's (akan datang) room. and guess what? my sis- in- law wants me to decorate it. :D woohoo! think the extent of 'decorate' is just painting the walls with murals and stuff but who cares? get to exercise my almost dead creativity. hmm gonna need some inspiration... ilham right? this reminds me of that song... 'beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang/ meraba aku dalam kelam...izinkan ku mencuri hayalan denganmu... kau ilhamku' or something like that. think if i ever get a son i'll name him ilham. haha berangan.

anyway.

my mum came into my room just now and dropped some news- i'll probably have to shift to my bro's room after he clears all his stuff out and give up my room to my bro and sisters. noooooooo! cos she says bro's room is too small for the 3 of them to share. agreed. all of them are currently sleeping in the master bedroom and this is a hassle when my dad has to go to work in the morn. agreed. i can claim all the wardrobe space in the room and fill it with my junk without anyone disturbing it. agreed.

why do they not want to sleep in my bro's room? cos the air- con ain't working. bah. i shouldn't have switched my air- con on... cos now they know it's working and i hadn't been using it for the past few months out of sheer choice and not cos i can't. double bah. i'm gonna have to relocate all my worldly possessions, and will possibly have to do this again a few months from now when we shift house due to the enbloc (god willing). triple bah.

then again, what the hell am i complaining about? i LOVE shifting! even if it's just to the room yonder, it represents a fresh start. i also get to declutter and throw out stuff that i'm holding on to due to sentimental reasons but don't really care about anymore as the years dull the memories. woohoo!

uh so yeah. that's the story. i forget what the conclusion is.

what's the point in being slow, let's just get this show on the road

i'm updating cos shaz called me a silly cow for not doing so.

not.

wahaha. i went to the gym today after a 2 week 'hiatus'. i didn't blow off today's session cos i had an appointment with one of the trainers. a so called 'follow up' session to see my progress. ie. they want me to part with my moolah after that and give it to them so they can make me do stuff i already know i should but don't cos i'm too lazy and i lack discipline. the last time they attempted this was august 2005.

good news: i'm maintaining my current weight (note: lighter than in aug 2005. last time i weighed myself was last week) and my body fat percentage has dropped. :) this means that i've lost about 5kg of pure fat. woohoo!

bad news: i'm not doing enough resistance and this means that i might lose muscle cos i'm doing too much cardio. it's complicated. no wonder i don't feel as good now as i did last time even though my weight is the same. my muscles are atrophying!!

i also think this is cos i'm more or less in starvation mode. which is not good. i hate it. but most days i have to choose between the devil and the deep blue sea. i don't wanna eat anything too fatty/ oily/ processed but that's all i got. on the other hand i'm too lazy/ busy to make healthy stuff for myself and it's hard to find such nutritious stuff where i work.

so what's the solution? don't eat lor. it sucks. most of the time i grudgingly swallow something cos i might pass out from being so damn hungry. not good. need to get some sort of control over my diet mans.i also wander around aimlessly or shop during my lunch hour cos i can't decide what to have. hmm. yes, i think my bank account is suffering along with my body.

anyways, it was a good pt (personal training) session, felt muscles that i forgot existed. did crunches for the 1st time in god knows how long. i have a valid excuse for this- didn't wanna disturb my piercing with all the movement. wahaha. after the session was when the real challenge began.

he tried to offer me pt sessions, but of cos cannot take just one lah. like a package. mahal gila ok. relek sua. then finally he called his manager to talk to me. fuck, was really in the shits then. the manager was hawt. huge indian guy with rebonded hair, glasses, great bod and good english. cair. haha. no lah, maintain, of cos. he tried his best, offered me something that i found really really hard to resist, but my head just kept screaming nooooooooooooo!

cos it would imply that i can't do it on my own. i've already lost 10 on my own dammit, i can manage the 10 more. hmph. the trainer and the manager even went so far as to compliment my 'beautiful eyes' and 'great smile'. pfft. tell me something i don't know dudes! wahaha. think manager dude sat with me for almost an hour but i managed to hold my ground. haha. your intimidation techniques don't work on me man. pick on someone your own size!

he also loosened up after a while, cos he realised i wasn't about to get pressured into signing up on the spot. told me about this thing called the 'onion butt'. i was like, wtf mate? then he explained, it's the kind of butt, when the person walks into the room and you see it, you wanna cry cos it just looks soo damn good. waahahahahahahhaha. kelakar gila.

this onion butt reminded me of a certain tag that said 'butts can be built with squats but boobs are a gift from god.' adigal should know what i'm talking about. haha. time to build! if eva longoria can add 2 inches to her butt then so can i! then again she has a trainer... oh. wait... doh.

i'm glad i went though. cos it has given me my mojo back. very motivated to go the last mile(s) now. just watch me.

on another issue: we both know it's better if we just let it go. that's all i have to say about that.

someone bitch slap me please

since WHEN did i become so fucking emotional?

fuck it. get a grip, woman!!

so close yet so far

my hotly contested grc put up a rather good show. 43.92% to the opposition. ooh, so so close. almost half of the residents voted for the opposition. should the ruling party be worried? i reckon, yes, they should.

perhaps we'll see some major improvements in the area as a result of them trying to win us over. what if something like in v for vendetta happened here? that would be awesome.

i hope they put up a good fight next time round. who knows, they might win.

in other news, been feeling damned lethargic lately. think it's the diet. haven't been taking in any good, nutritious foods. bleurgh. perhaps i should do some detoxing. hmm. green tea here i come. i'm sick of the food selection at tampines too. sighs. i need more variety man. or mebbe i just need to stop being lazy and start to bring bekal. haha. but then if i bring bekal how the heck am i supposed to spend the rest of my lunch break? it's not like there are any nice places to sit at in tamp central... without spending, of course. sighs. lousy office doesn't have a lounge area either. bummer.

my theory is that i'm having a bout of sick office syndrome (sos). i don't think it's a coincidence that i've been to the doc 3 times since i started work. i didn't use to get sick so often. once a year, max. it's only been about 9 months. sucks. lucky can claim. otherwise ah, broke man. i love popping pills but i don't like strong medication. think it just fucks things up even more in the long run, u know. bah. i soo need a vacation and a good massage.

p.s. not gonna talk about what rohana, shaz and i did on sat. rohana covered it already haha. one thing's for sure, i'm going back to parkway to do some shopping man. hot tip: use the loos from the 2nd floor upwards. the rest are crowded as hell.

do you have the time...?

list of things i wanna do, and i need good company to do them with:

da vinci code (can't wait for this. loved the book. tho i still think angels and demons is better.)
x- men III (hugh!)
pirates of the carribean II (johnny! orlando!)
scary movie IV (love the tagline- "bury the grudge. burn the village. see the saw". wahahahahhaha.)
just my luck (chick flick! i love lindsay. except when she looked creepy. ie. skinny, blonde, too tanned.)

newpaper big walk (21 may so chop chop ppl! so far rohana has kindly agreed. haha.)
shape run (ok choice btwn 5km and 10km. note: run. so i guess we'll do the 5? 16 july, plenty of time to shape up. and it's women only.)

on an unrelated issue, man i hate it when people rush me first thing in the morn. then again, i hate it when people rush me, period. if it's important enough they will wait! supposed to go to the polls today right, so i thought ok ah relek- relek can go later with my mum b4 she goes to work. then suddenly she's like, eh me and ayah going now, come ah. i'm like hello?? baru bangun pagi, belum mandi, and you want me to go to the polls (where there are probably loads of cameras & reporters and shit. i'm assuming)?? relek sua. so i was like, uh, no. and promptly shut myself up in my room. sheesh. yes, i'm grumpy. bite me.

tribute part deux

wahlau eh, tried to put up these pics the same time i did the last post and i couldn't! so shitty. but here they are in all their glory for your hungry eyes...

yasmine and i under hajar's block... i think this is a nice shot. haha. good food btw, love the fried wanton. i think ah, if i get married i'm gonna serve yong tau foo. wahaha. and get one of those ice- cream apeks in too. hmm. i digress.

the car... i seriously think they should've used the other one. suicide doors!! oh man!! *drool*

hajar looking very proud of herself... good catch!

do you see what i see...? or rather, what is preventing me from seeing. i think the kompang players are ex-mat rocks, now pakcik rocks. loud, very loud.

yet another nice shot. this time at fadzil's side... in an air-con hall. thank god, otherwise my face would've melted. haha. yummy food too!

tribute...

CONGRATULATIONS

HAJAR & FADZIL

ON YOUR MARRIAGE!!

well what can i say, one of my bestfriends of 12 years tied the knot last weekend. bride was gorgeous, groom was dashing, wedding was beautiful and the honoured guests weren't bad looking either. wahaha. anyways, let's just let the pictures do the talking shall we...

this shot on the pelamin was stolen from someone's friendster page. the version i have did not pass the stringent tests of the editor (ie. moi). 1/3 of the people looked bad, so no go.

hajar before the nikah... hehe. the last time we'll see her as a single woman.

hajar and fadzil layaning me. gorgeous pelamin man.

fadzil layaning me. thought it would be cool to have a shot of him peeking in on hajar when she's getting ready. like very the cute and cheeky right? but no... mr happy couldn't do it with a straight face. wahahaha. and who could blame him.

on our way to fadzil's side...

i need some serious retail therapy

spent almost 50 bucks yesterday on 3 pairs of bonds undies. 50 bucks!! daylight robbery man. they only cost what, between $6-8 in aust? i paid $14-18!! sungguh tidak adil. alas i couldn't wait any longer. perth trip in 4 months. if i wait even another month i'll be going commando most days. ha. ha. ha. let's not go there.

my hands are itchy. i wanna spend. i don't know why. kakis, please please please come out of hiding for the love of god. i just got my much anticipated capitacard. yay! it's so shiny and new and purple and sparkly... heeheehee.

i need shoes. i need tops. i need black workpants (mine are getting so worn out that the stretch bits in the stretch material are showing. i kid you not. thin strands of elastic are sticking out of my pantlegs!). i need more undies. note: need.

someone indulge me please before i go nuts.

because i'm easter bunny- deprived

oh. my. god. ohmygodohmygodohmygod. think i just had what you might call a culinary orgasmic experience. was just sitting there stunned by the divine taste and texture of the fabulously rich and sinful ben & jerry's chunky monkey and phish food. oh. my. god.

imagine creamy vanilla ice-cream at the perfect temperature, giving it a luxe soft finish. now blend in pieces of sweet banana slices, crunchy walnuts and chunks of rich chocolate. mmmmmm. and that's just the chunky monkey.

rich chocolate ice-cream loaded with cute fish shaped choc pieces and swirled with neverending trails of caramel and marshmellow. a chewy, sticky delight. man...

ben & jerry- you guys are fucking awesome.

and they have new flavours out!! check em!! http://www.benjerry.com

if sex really is better than chocolate, or in this case, premium ice- cream, then it's got a helluva lot to beat. hmm. are birth rates higher than the number of people getting diabetes each year?

excuse me while i go lick my bowl clean and ban myself from the fridge. jp morgan chase corporate challenge in 11 days dammit!!

someone make the pain go away...

i'm having a horrid headache right now, the kind that throbs with a life of it's own. been that way since yesterday. sigh. i'm assuming it's a side effect of the antibiotics i'm taking for the diarrhoea episode i had on wed. 10 times to the loo. i think that's some kinda record man. the thing about this stupid headache is that it's at the back of my head and the throbbing subsides when i hold my breath. so what does this mean? i have to stop breathing to make the pain go away? is death the answer? sighs.

anyways, last sat i co-hosted the annual kampung party held in my neighbourhood. GOH was minister George Yeo. i didn't say that much during the hosting as my co-host seemed intent on reading from his script and not even making eye contact with me so i couldn't cut in and give my two cents worth. bummer ok. so stupid. but i did manage to give an overview of the event and tease the musical act and conduct the lucky draw in a relatively professional manner. that's what i think anyway.

i sat at the GOH table for dinner. wahaha. while the GOH was making his rounds greeting the residents i took the opportunity to swipe some of the kuih lapis at the table for my forever hungry family members... what? it wasn't like he was gonna eat it. cos right after the greetings was the dialogue session.

it was a good dialogue session indeed. he was poised and diplomatic with all his answers to the queries from the residents. he even kept his cool and kept his face straight when an excited elderly resident was spinning him a tale of her house hunting woes. kelakar gila ok.

it was also a pretty lucky night, my family members won 2 of the lucky draw prizes. haha. a rice cooker and a mini cd compo. coincidental, cos before the event started i told my lil bro, we are gonna take home the cd player thingy. haha. no, no kelong cos i wasn't the one who picked the numbers ok. i merely read them out. haha.

sadly this may be the last kampung party before our enbloc sale. we're all hoping that it'll happen really really soon. many of the residents have already gone househunting sia! so if anyone who lives in the east happens to know someone who's moving out of a flat that's big enough for 6 people, let me know!! we're aiming for a jumbo flat i reckon. or a 5 room exec. i already have my furniture picked out. essential items are a loft bed (maximise space. i hate clutter), floor to ceiling mirrors, wall to wall wardrobe and no roommates. :)

ya, i'm dreaming. hehehe. ok back to nursing my poor head and cleaning out my closet. i have gots to go to the gym more often man. can't fit anymore! nooooo!

with family like this, who needs enemies?

remember the sister i was so proud of 2 posts ago? well, she is a fucking cunt from hell who should just go take a long walk off a short cliff.

why? cos she is not a decent human being who deserves to live. there, i said it.

imagine this:
you come back home after a looong day trip to KL where you spent 3/4 of the time in a car that should get scrapped, travelling on bumpy, potholed 'across the border' roads. every bump makes your new piercing hurt like a bitch. the first thing you wanna do when you get home is to jump in the shower, survey the damage done and fix it. quickly. you also wanna get it over with cos you wanna talk to your bf whom you haven't spoken to all day.

the fucking cunt picks the exact time you reach home to head upstairs and go into the bathroom. she washes her face with the freaking shower. who the fuck does that? several times. please lah, washing your face that many times won't make it look any better ok. bitch. i say, hey hurry up, i wanna mandi. she ignores it. i think, ok maybe she didn't hear me cos of the running water. i go inside to wash my contact lens case and i repeat myself. she snaps back, wait lah. i say, quick lah. you know what the cheebye said?

'eat shit.'

i say nothing. cos if i do, somebody will get hurt. physically. and i'm not talking about me.

i can't stand people who waste resources. in this case, water. can't use the sink is it? can't turn off the shower when you leave the bathroom to take something?

i can't stand people who deliberately make life difficult for others/ are inconsiderate. i don't think she ever uses her brain to think of others. why the hell couldn't she have done all that sooner? she had plenty of time before we got back.

i can't stand people who have no respect for others. rude piece of turd.

please remind me never to speak to her ever again. until such time when she behaves like a decent human being.

please remind me not to treat her like a sister. until such time when she acts like one.

please remind me never to do anything nice for her ever again. until such time when she does something nice for me. cos now that i think about it, she hasn't done anything of the sort.

there.

btw, there was a freaking flying cockroach in my room the size of my thumb. aaaarrrgghhhh!! think it's somewhere behind my dresser now, dying a slow and painful death after i sprayed it. please please please let it die. die bitch die. now i have to go and disinfect all the stuff on my dresser, chuck out my cotton facial squares and wash my waterbottle and lens stuff thoroughly. argh. i'm too tired for this shit. tomorrow ah tomorrow. tonight i will be sleeping with my mouth shut. just in case. i hope my lindt bunny is still edible.